Tuesday, October 04, 2011

“你有没有男朋友?”

“你有没有男朋友?”
这个问题,我猜每个单身的女生都会遇到的吧。
尤其是我老妈。她很喜欢这样的问我。

版本 A:
老妈:有没有男朋友?
我:没有。
老妈:那有没有暗恋人?
我:没有。
老妈:那。。。嗯。。。 有没有人暗恋你?
我:哦买够。(有人暗恋我,我会知道?那就不叫暗恋了=.=)
有时我真的败给我老妈了。
而有时我又会犯奸的这样回答: “没有。注定要做老姑婆。等你养我。” “没有。但有女朋友。要认识吗?”
而我老妈就会说“无聊。拜”(你才无聊好不好……)


版本 B:
上星期去找舅舅。舅也这样的问我。
舅舅:有没有男朋友?
我:没有。
舅舅:作密波 (福建话“为什么没有?”)
我:要做老姑婆了啦。到时候要去你的公司做工。吃你的。住你的。还要拿薪水。
舅舅:好,每个月两千。十年合约。没的起薪。要吗?
我:要!作么不要。吃你的住你的。还有薪水拿。稳拿十年。傻的才不要。来签约吧!哈哈哈。
过后,我那奸诈的老舅不理我。

版本 C:
有天和老板的老婆聊天她也这样的问我。
老板娘:今天星期五,为什么没有出去拍拖?
我:没有男朋友怎样拍拖?
老板娘:你那么可爱为什么没有?
我:因为可怜没人爱。哈哈哈。。
老板娘:哈哈。 时间还没到啦。你那么好那么可爱。会遇到的啦。
我:恩是咯。谢谢。但心里的OS: 我可爱?我不觉得哦。
...

唉。真的没有嘛。为何大家都不信呢... 
以前的我会觉得很无奈。很讨厌被这样问。现在我因该都麻木了吧。偶尔,会草草的代过。
每当别人这样的问我时,而我的答案是“没有”。很奇怪的每个人都会很惊讶 “做么没有?”
我没有男朋友很奇怪吗?没有就没有。又有什么办法嘛?又不是我不要,而真的是还没遇到嘛。

有位朋友她说。“ 那些让你看上的男人,而没看上你真的是瞎了。你那么好,跟你在一起可以很快乐。每天那么癫,嘻嘻哈哈的。而你笑起来好甜。我喜欢你笑容。”
还是第一次被人这样夸奖。那时的我还真得有点paiseh。而我也只能说谢谢。这位友人呢,已经被调走了,唉……我还真的很想她。

单身没有什么不好的呀。单身有单身的好。能自由自在的。想去哪里就去,想做什么就做。但有时还真的很寂寞。


往好处想吧。单身到表着自由。

Friday, June 10, 2011

阿嬷

无奈的阿嬷,那么的无助,那么的辛苦的职能比手划脚的来表达她想要的事。
现在的我真的很希望我有超能力,能力去知道阿嬷心里在想什么。
每次看见阿嬷那么无助的眼神,我心就一阵痛。
每次看见阿嬷流泪,我眼泪也不知觉就流下来。
每当我告诉他要回KL了,她就紧紧的抱着我,感觉好像不想要让我回去。
那时的我真的有股冲动想留下。
她喜欢握着我们的手,捏阿捏阿,像是想告诉我们什么的。
就有一天,她捏着我的手,捏着捏着,阿嬷就流下了眼泪。
我就很自然的抱着他,我问:“嬷,你做么哭?很辛苦是吗?” 阿嬷点头。
我那时也跟着哭了起来。而我只能很无助的抱着他,安慰着他。
跟她说,我们每个人都会在这里陪着你直到你能走路,说话。
你的辛苦我们知道,你的无奈我们也知道。
只是这病,是要靠时间,靠你的意志,才会慢慢的好转。
阿嬷,慢慢来,我们都在你身旁陪着你。
阿嬷,加油。期待着健健康康的你。


阿嬷,加油!

Monday, March 28, 2011

离别

每个人的世界都有不同的人进进出出。
形形色色的人。
不同的人,有不同的分量。
有些人是你一辈子都不会忘记的人, 而有些因为时间而慢慢忘记的人。
每个人都会在你的心里留下那些难忘的回忆。
有好的,开心的;有坏的,伤心的。
而我们都会从中学习到一些事非。
了解每个人的心里在想什么。
每一个离别都会留下一些些美好的回忆。
我珍惜这些回忆。有时想起,还会不知觉的微笑。
谢谢这些人在我生命里所留下的痕迹。

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Nothing In Between



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- What are we? -

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

Fall 7 times stand up 8 times.



Life's full of obstacle, challenges, and a lot shitty stuff that somehow you wished that it wouldn't happens.
That’s what we called life. If life is just like a piece of blank paper. Isn't it dull? Boring?
Challenges, Obstacles are just like color pencils. First, We might have problems mixing them together. But after we mixed them together isn't it will be colorful? and we will get lotsa lotsa pretty pretty nice pictures? of course we will and we treat those failed as lessons. Learn from the mistake and create a better one.
After a lot of crappy things happen recently, been crying for sometimes. Heartbroken, stressed out, lost. All sort of shit felt in a week. Talked to my boss, my BFF, my mum and I’m glad they are around. After crying, I felt that I'm kinda back to my old self again. Happy; content of what I have now. Learn from the setbacks and stand straight up to face the next challenges.
God gave me challenges and also He gave me solutions. He just waiting for me to look for it. because whenever God closes a door, SOMEWHERE he opens a window!. So I’ll just let God decide everything for me and I’ll happily accept the decisions. Of course I might be sad for awhile or a long times. Whatever is decided is decided, can’t really change it. But that's what makes life so wonderful. There’s always up and down.
Every things happens for a reasons. Whatever is yours is yours, even you forcibly to get something but in the end you will also lose it. Can’t force what not yours to be yours. 
I’m one of those that can’t handle problems well. Mostly I will just let it be and somehow it will be solved. For me, time is always the best solutions as Time can makes baby grown into adult; Illness to be cured; life to be ended. No matter how hard how difficult life is, time always allowed me to think, to do what’s right, what’s for the best.
Once my friend told me, "Appreciate what you have now, don’t think so much for those unrealistic stuff. Be content and you'll happy"
I’m really blessed with many friends and family who loves me and I loves you all too.
Moi, thank you for standing by my side when I fell. Because you are here, that’s why I’m always able to stand up again. I can’t really imagine what I might become if you weren't around. Thanks for everything.. 

- Fell and stand back up-

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

Cried

I'm really so stressed out working under this current leader. With those workload she gave is like I'm a AI who can handle so many things. So I went and "ask" my previous leader to pull me back and of course the conversation include many jokes.

After asking my previous leader(Uncle Yap)to request me back for don't know how many times. Today finally I kinda break down after talking to him.

When I was talking with one of my colleagues saying that he doesn’t pull me back as he thought that I was joking… swwtt.. so I went and kacao him saying that I'm serious about wanna go back to help him and joking on the part that I wanna quit.

When he was trying to talk to me about why I can't go back, the consequences, the purpose he wanna me to stay in this team and et cetera et cetera et cetera…

Sure. I sure know a little about this and that. But is kind of depressing for me to stay in this team…

What I relief about is that my previous leader understand my current situation. and he told that if he takes me back, sure will let others jerit at. What he said after made me cried.

He said "BUT i no take u, i worry u.. becoz i know ur situation, they 3 seems like throw all rojak to u, 1 day u die.."

“ ... hold a while, i will move when time being.. i put on my mind de.. every of u all is i train de, everyone oso got diff strength, diff capability, i look all this in my eyes… but sometimes jus need timing, location and humanity… now think +ve 1st, this can help u thru de.. how ? focus 1 thing at a time, although many thing flows to u”

My eyes filled with tears after reading this. right in front of my workstation where there's people in front of me. and of course I quickly walk to the toilet and clean off..

After that, I told him that 'I'm holding on le.. If I'm not thinking positive I've already cabut and mostly is because of you that I'm still here. Currently, I'm hanging by a thread. When that thread is broken, I will be finding you crying. By then remember to save me..'

What else can I do now? Uncle yap ar.. you tell me to hold on.. I'm holding on for you. Please take me back fast before I break down. Crying face

 

-depressed-

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

Workaholic? FML!

been staring at this blank page and hands on the keyboard for 1 and a half songs time.
my brain now is full of my work’s program. thinking the flow and how I should do with the key field and everything. Luckily there's no paper and pen right in front of me, if not I probably will just draw the flow out and write everything down.. OMFFGGGG.. I'm not a workaholic! I’m going insane!
I'm so busy till doesn't have the time to go toilet. Everyday, lunch at 1pm. So breakfast is very important for me as its prevent me from starving. Been working like a cow. My leader takes one person as three person to monitor which means one person have to do three person's work. so can you imagine the how big the workload is?
Everyday rush rush rush rush rush. It' driving me nuts!
I miss movie time, I miss Friday’s K-lunch! I miss Aman Suria's Char Siew and Hakka Mee, I Miss Xing Yuan Long's White Coffee, I miss KD's Chilli Pan Mee,  I miss adik Minum, I miss chui shui time.
I MISS EVERYTHING IN KPMG!! except the time where I need to push people to do work and rush work!
Although working in the bank, has it own benefits, cheap nice food, easy transportation which means I can go back whenever I like (when my lead is not around ), and I can focus my work without any distractionssss since KPMG is kinda a stress free working environment whereby I'm able to walk here and there, talk here and there, slack whenever I want. When can I go back KPMG and enjoy the time there?
Lately, I’m getting a little emo again... Due to stress? Most probably.. Kinda not satisfied with the things I do. Always regretting doing something as I always never think before I act. Hmmm... I should change this but seems kinda hard to change.
My brain kinda stop functioning whenever I’m off from work. I’m already missing my life as a student where I can just skip classes whenever I feel like. Falling asleep during lecture, hanging out with my friends… Ahhhh.. I miss those time…
Working sucks to the max except for payday. $_$. I can’t have long breaks, I can’t skips work whenever I feel like it. I can’t sleep during office hours... Sometimes, I can’t even enjoy my weekends when emails keep coming in. FML X 9999999
Maybe due to the "nice" leader I'm currently following who kinda sucks to the max… Never teach me anything or explain to me clearly and expect me to know whatever shit she gave me to do… Sucks.. I usually will just stare at the screen and do nothing… Until I shiok or I bored then only I go ask my senior or ask her. Sometimes, I rather just ask my senior than her… Since that whatever she explained to me I still won’t understand. FML!
As the matter of the facts, I don’t really like this leader whereas she just knows how open and close her mouth. All she does is sit there talk and get salary and I’ll be working like a cow. All day long work work work.
We had a web where it stores those error logs found and assigned to the leader and leader will assign to their member. For this leader, she assigned without informingn us and expect us to go through thousands of thousands error log to check whether has any of it assigned to us with our names?
There’s even one time, when I was very sick… Even a tester asked me to take MC and go back home rest as I was coughing and sneezing all the time; had a very very bad cold.. Guess what… My super nice leader heard what she said and answered, “If she takes MC who helps you solve error logs?” I just kept quiet and I was soooo pissed that time… What kind of leader is this? I took off after that… sucks to have this kind of leader.. My senior took mc after 2 weeks time because I passed the virus to her… and guess what… my nice leader said, “I worked for so long, I never take MC before also.”
There you go... Another reason makes me dislike her even more. She thought we all are robots? Will never fall sick? All the work is done by us… All she does is reply mails, go meetings and asking us what’s your tasks status, whereby all of us working like hard-labors. Everything also passed to us and she’s at there shaking legs… So pissed! 
After this, stage finished, I’m off le… I will request for other project or team. I can’t tolerate the way she treated us.., sucks to the max! Uncle yap ar…. When are you going to request me back.. T__T
I wore blue today and even my sweater is blue… and that concluded my feelings for today…


- FML -

Saturday, January 22, 2011

我喜欢,不我恨

我爱一个人逛街。想去那里就去那里。想休息就休息。想逛多久就逛多久。 我能在一间店待上一个多小时。有可能我喜欢去这间但你又不喜欢。我呢就会觉得好无趣。
我爱吃蛋糕,尤其 Secret Recipe's Yogurt Cheesecake. 慢慢的在那里慢慢吃。要吃多久就多久。没有人催你快点。
我爱喝咖啡,尤其 Starbuck's Javachip. 慢慢的在那里享受。看看书,上上网,看着进进出出,形形色色的人们。有时还会看到老爷爷,老婆婆牵着手,慢慢的走过。不知觉得就会微笑,想着, 这就是“幸福”。
我爱看书,虽然不像。不是课上的书。而是故事书,漫画。
我爱一个人逛书店。在里面,一本一本的慢慢看。从英文区逛到华文区,再从华文区走到儿童区。 从英文书看到华文书。看到了,读到了喜欢的就会坐下来慢慢的读。喜欢就会买回家。我曾经在书店里呆了两个多小时。
我爱看卡通片。迪斯尼卡通,动漫我都喜欢。但我也知道我老了。看这些,好像怪怪的。但我还是喜欢。
我爱去戏院看戏。爱一个人静静的看着戏。但又喜欢戏后,有人倍我聊剧情。
我爱一个人坐在海边。吹吹海风,聆听着还浪声。看着小孩们玩闹。
我爱睡觉。我的记录是睡上14个小时。醒了3小时又睡上3小时。所以那时我活动的时间只有7小时。
我爱热闹,但又不能在多人的地方。我会缺氧。曾经因为这样而昏倒。吓死了我的朋友。还他们手忙脚乱的扶我到没人的地方。还有一位朋友,以为我要吐。匆匆忙忙的帮我找厕所。
我爱玩闹。有时会做出让人流汗的事情。只要有人陪我玩闹,我会玩到很癫。
我爱吃,但又容易,很快饱。所以我需要一个很会吃又爱吃的朋友帮我吃。所以我弟弟,我老爸就是我的“垃圾桶”。
我爱在家穿大大件的衣服,松松的裤子。我弟弟,我爸爸的衣服就是我在家的便衣。
我爱干净,但有懒得打扫。
我喜欢和朋友出去玩。不爱一个人在家。所以你约我可能性很大我会赴约。但有时会懒惰出门。
我爱“喝茶”, 因为这时候是我和朋友玩闹时间。
我爱唱歌。但不喜欢一个人唱。
我爱拍照。因为那可以把那瞬间的回忆给留下。但又照的很差。
我爱看旧照片,哪能让我想起很多事。
我爱煮饭,但不喜欢准备材料和洗碗筷。
我爱旅游,但没钱。
我不喜欢一个人吃饭,觉得很寂寞,很无聊。我爱边吃边聊天。
我不喜欢一个人在家。很无聊。和闷。
我不喜欢拖拖拉拉。要就要,不要就不要。而不是一下子不要有下说要。做人要果断点。
我不喜欢昆虫。爬的,飞的,小的,大的。有脚的,没脚的,我都怕。尤其是小强。我怕壁虎,我连青蛙都怕。
我不喜欢飞蚂蚁。一大群的在灯那里飞啊飞啊。我会起鸡皮疙瘩。
我不喜欢离别,很伤心,很无奈。
我不喜欢看恐怖片,听恐怖故事。骗我看,骗我听,就别怪我翻脸。
我不喜欢看喊打喊杀,血腥,恶心的东西。
我不喜欢等。等一两分钟还好。等上半小时?要命。
我不喜欢不问自取。不管我跟你多熟,多要好。但至少跟我说声。留个字条,留个简讯也好。
我不喜欢人说我有钱。如果我有钱你就能看见我的包包是LV, 衣服是Burberry。 鞋子是Jimmy Choo。 我只是想把钱花在我有能力上的,来奖励我自己辛苦了一个月。穿好的,穿比较贵的,至少它耐穿。一双鞋RM80 我能穿上一年多,而且可说是每天穿,这样算贵吗?
我不喜欢爽约。答应了就要做到除非有不可避免的理由。不要开空头支票。
我不喜欢热热的天气。但又怕冷。
我不喜欢人说我拽,尤其是认识了很久的朋友。如果我拽,你不会在认识我那么久后才发现。
我不喜欢隐瞒。做人就要坦荡荡的。人前人后是不一样的。在你面前很好,在你背后捅你几十刀。
我不喜欢被拒绝。我送你东西请收下。虽然我还是会默默地收起来如果你拒绝。但那是我情愿给你的,你不收我会很伤心。

嗯..还有很多很多的我喜欢,不我恨。来吧!来了解我,你就会知道了我是个怎样的人。冷血,冷酷,霸道,任性,好玩,大剌剌,三八;你们来评论吧。

- 这就是我 -

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Shopping Spree

CHINESE NEW YEAR SHOPPING!!!
Is the one time that I can shop till I drop! YEAH!!!! since it is just once a year…

spent 2 weekends shopping for CNY clothes. thinking should I continue this weekend also?

Bought lots of lots of clothes and I spent nearly RM700++.  RM700+!! on these things! o.O

First time, after starting to work I spent so much on clothes! omggg.. and now I’m officially broke. All I can do now is wait and wait and wait for my company to give out monthly allowance.

A week before, I went to Sunway Pyramid and 1 utama to shop for clothes. When I walked into Sunway Pyramid's Dorothy Perkins and there's one dress caught my eyes. Black dress with polka dots. I like it a lot but ended up didn't buy it because it is black color. Next day, went to 1 utama again, walked into Dorothy again, look at that dress again.  I got the rush to just grab it and just pay it! but ended up didn't because it is B-L-A-C-K! 


So I went back home, I googled that dress and saw another one Red dress! same design but it is red without polka dots. But it seems that it is not available in Malaysia's Dorothy.

So, I showed it to leeloo that polka dots dress and told her that I love it! and she said "Still wait for what? Just Buy! Once a year only! BUY!"

Then I decide, I will try my luck too see whether is that red dress available or not.. BUT.. sighhh.. Don't have. So I bought that polka dot dress which I’ve been eyeing it for long!



I love it! A LOT!

Actually don't feel like buying new shoes for CNY, since I've already bought a pair recently. But, for girls shoes will never get enough even if you have 100 pairs! So I got myself 2 pairs!! hahaha..

One is flats from Summit and another one is zebra strips sandals from Charles and Keith. Sandals is still in Singapore, waiting for my friend to bring it back for me! lalalala…



- shopaholic -

Thursday, January 13, 2011

We. Us.

From 2006 – 2011. 5 years we have been together. going to the same hall listening to the same boring lecture blabbing those long complicated lessons which it is not complete in the notes they had given. You are always sitting up front and I'm always sitting at the back. You will be paying your full attention, listening and jotting down those words coming out from lecturer’s mouth and I will be at the back having my fun with the boring-ness or dozing off in the cold lecture hall. Even being together for 5 years, we just start being friends in the 3rd year.

First impression, I had on you was. "wow, what a pretty girl". Do you know I was kind of afraid of you and never liked you? Maybe is because you seems so fierce; so proud.

When I was told by your boyfriend that you are going to be in the same company as me and I was like "oh Shit! o.O ".

However, we hit off immediately after started to work. You claimed that we are BFF after just being together for few days. The first impression I had was not right. After hanging out together, then only I know. You are truly a devil inside out.  (and I was right, you are fierce.)


I like to put my arms in yours. I remembered that one time you don’t let me and we went crazy dragging and pulling each others in the shopping mall. We looked like two crazy fools, playing in the mall. Laughing.

Loves the 2 hours times in K-Lunch with you. Singing all we can. Shouting all we can. Getting high with 为了你而活. Now whenever I listened to this song and 叶子, I will think of you.

Taking off our shoes and walking around in the bank, always makes people speechless.

Always eating breakfast together in Otah-Otah or bank's canteen; ah – pui's ham cheese sandwich. You will be drinking apple with sour plum without ice and I will be drinking coffee ice.

Eating lunch at Lao Di Fang, Petaling Street, playing, taking off our shoes, learning new language, teasing our senior, Kenneth and complaining while working was how I passed my time during Internship.

When we have nothing to do, we would be reading those novel you downloaded. (when are you gonna give me the latest updates? )


I don't know whether do you remembered. Once,you called me and you was crying. Telling me things about you and we talked heart to heart till "early" morning. Next day, I went to find you and had lunch together. You looked like gold fish. After that, we became even closer.

Fortunately, we were together during internship. If not I can't imagine how boring I will be. Even you are hard to pleased, you're still fun to be around.

After graduated, we were together again in the same company. I thought that we were going to work together once more. However, you decided to go overseas to further your studies.

Blame it on luck, your plan didn't goes as you wished. You called me crying again. Even though, you ended up being stuck here; we became even more closer. You took all the time you can to get numb over it and now you are happy working in another company.

We are still able to hang out and have fun. Updating each other about our life.. Having you around is another joy I have.

You are always one of the pair of ears, the pair of eyes, the pair of hands I can depends on when I needed it. A friend when I can keep and trust. Do you trust me?

You promised that we will always be BFF. By then, don't you leave me alone.




PS:You know who are you and this post feels like I’m making a love confessions.


- just us -