Friday, November 09, 2007

Busy Life once more

Busy life…
This is semester is the worst semester I’m going through now, the toughest semester. There are at least 3 theory papers and 2 practical papers. 5 of these paper have the high credit hours which is all 4 credits and one 5 credits. If I fail one of these papers then I’m a goner for sure. I’m gonna end my diploma soon…
hurray for the graduation but boohoo for the exam!!

I just got my result today, and … it isn’t as good as I thought it will, so sad. I thought at least I will get an A but I got none, and guess what, that cost accounting. I FAILED, just as I predicted. Haha…

Actually nowadays I’m not as happy as I thought I am, as you all thought I am. I don’t wanna to be alone. As I know when I’m alone, I’ll start thinking stuff that I avoid to think during the days, during the time with friends. Someone made me cry last week. Incredible le… there’s someone who actually able to make me cry. =P what that someone did was someone ignored me for nearly 3 days. Never talk to me, never even look at me. This makes me really sad. =(

Today one of my friends, hui shi (obasan) asked me what happened between me and that someone. Why two of us acting so weird? Why two of us like having an argument inside? Why both of you not like you two used to be? Actually I have no idea also. I’ve no idea what has happen between us. Just suddenly that someone isn’t acting like used to be. Now, acting like we are strangers, treating me very politely, not like we used to be, fooling around. Curiosity and sadness came upon; I really wanted to know what has happen? I can feel that there’s a sense of dislike-ness from you towards me. Am I right? I hope that isn’t. At least let me know what I have done wrong. Don’t leave me like this, clueless for what had happen. Clueless what had happened to our friendship, like there’s a crack in it, that isn’t able to fix it, and no idea how it happens.

Nowadays sadness has come and filled more than half of my heart. No idea is because of studies or what. All I know that, everyday, when I’m alone, I felt that I’m somehow disappointed. That’s why I don’t wanted to be alone. I hate loneliness, but it has already taken over my life now and it will go on for quite a long time...