Monday, March 28, 2011

离别

每个人的世界都有不同的人进进出出。
形形色色的人。
不同的人,有不同的分量。
有些人是你一辈子都不会忘记的人, 而有些因为时间而慢慢忘记的人。
每个人都会在你的心里留下那些难忘的回忆。
有好的,开心的;有坏的,伤心的。
而我们都会从中学习到一些事非。
了解每个人的心里在想什么。
每一个离别都会留下一些些美好的回忆。
我珍惜这些回忆。有时想起,还会不知觉的微笑。
谢谢这些人在我生命里所留下的痕迹。

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Nothing In Between



Wanna read?
If yes come and ask me what it is.. and see if i tells you...
If don't want.. then don't even bother. Since I DON'T CARE

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- What are we? -

Tuesday, March 08, 2011

Fall 7 times stand up 8 times.



Life's full of obstacle, challenges, and a lot shitty stuff that somehow you wished that it wouldn't happens.
That’s what we called life. If life is just like a piece of blank paper. Isn't it dull? Boring?
Challenges, Obstacles are just like color pencils. First, We might have problems mixing them together. But after we mixed them together isn't it will be colorful? and we will get lotsa lotsa pretty pretty nice pictures? of course we will and we treat those failed as lessons. Learn from the mistake and create a better one.
After a lot of crappy things happen recently, been crying for sometimes. Heartbroken, stressed out, lost. All sort of shit felt in a week. Talked to my boss, my BFF, my mum and I’m glad they are around. After crying, I felt that I'm kinda back to my old self again. Happy; content of what I have now. Learn from the setbacks and stand straight up to face the next challenges.
God gave me challenges and also He gave me solutions. He just waiting for me to look for it. because whenever God closes a door, SOMEWHERE he opens a window!. So I’ll just let God decide everything for me and I’ll happily accept the decisions. Of course I might be sad for awhile or a long times. Whatever is decided is decided, can’t really change it. But that's what makes life so wonderful. There’s always up and down.
Every things happens for a reasons. Whatever is yours is yours, even you forcibly to get something but in the end you will also lose it. Can’t force what not yours to be yours. 
I’m one of those that can’t handle problems well. Mostly I will just let it be and somehow it will be solved. For me, time is always the best solutions as Time can makes baby grown into adult; Illness to be cured; life to be ended. No matter how hard how difficult life is, time always allowed me to think, to do what’s right, what’s for the best.
Once my friend told me, "Appreciate what you have now, don’t think so much for those unrealistic stuff. Be content and you'll happy"
I’m really blessed with many friends and family who loves me and I loves you all too.
Moi, thank you for standing by my side when I fell. Because you are here, that’s why I’m always able to stand up again. I can’t really imagine what I might become if you weren't around. Thanks for everything.. 

- Fell and stand back up-

Wednesday, March 02, 2011

Cried

I'm really so stressed out working under this current leader. With those workload she gave is like I'm a AI who can handle so many things. So I went and "ask" my previous leader to pull me back and of course the conversation include many jokes.

After asking my previous leader(Uncle Yap)to request me back for don't know how many times. Today finally I kinda break down after talking to him.

When I was talking with one of my colleagues saying that he doesn’t pull me back as he thought that I was joking… swwtt.. so I went and kacao him saying that I'm serious about wanna go back to help him and joking on the part that I wanna quit.

When he was trying to talk to me about why I can't go back, the consequences, the purpose he wanna me to stay in this team and et cetera et cetera et cetera…

Sure. I sure know a little about this and that. But is kind of depressing for me to stay in this team…

What I relief about is that my previous leader understand my current situation. and he told that if he takes me back, sure will let others jerit at. What he said after made me cried.

He said "BUT i no take u, i worry u.. becoz i know ur situation, they 3 seems like throw all rojak to u, 1 day u die.."

“ ... hold a while, i will move when time being.. i put on my mind de.. every of u all is i train de, everyone oso got diff strength, diff capability, i look all this in my eyes… but sometimes jus need timing, location and humanity… now think +ve 1st, this can help u thru de.. how ? focus 1 thing at a time, although many thing flows to u”

My eyes filled with tears after reading this. right in front of my workstation where there's people in front of me. and of course I quickly walk to the toilet and clean off..

After that, I told him that 'I'm holding on le.. If I'm not thinking positive I've already cabut and mostly is because of you that I'm still here. Currently, I'm hanging by a thread. When that thread is broken, I will be finding you crying. By then remember to save me..'

What else can I do now? Uncle yap ar.. you tell me to hold on.. I'm holding on for you. Please take me back fast before I break down. Crying face

 

-depressed-