new chapter of life

“你有没有男朋友？”

2011-10-04T21:44:00.002+08:00

“你有没有男朋友？”
这个问题，我猜每个单身的女生都会遇到的吧。
尤其是我老妈。她很喜欢这样的问我。

版本 A:
老妈：有没有男朋友？
我：没有。
老妈：那有没有暗恋人？
我：没有。
老妈：那。。。嗯。。。有没有人暗恋你？
我：哦买够。（有人暗恋我，我会知道？那就不叫暗恋了=.=)
有时我真的败给我老妈了。
而有时我又会犯奸的这样回答: “没有。注定要做老姑婆。等你养我。”或 “没有。但有女朋友。要认识吗？”
而我老妈就会说“无聊。拜”（你才无聊好不好……）

版本 B:
上星期去找舅舅。舅也这样的问我。
舅舅：有没有男朋友？
我：没有。
舅舅：作密波 （福建话“为什么没有？”)
我：要做老姑婆了啦。到时候要去你的公司做工。吃你的。住你的。还要拿薪水。
舅舅：好，每个月两千。十年合约。没的起薪。要吗？
我：要！作么不要。吃你的住你的。还有薪水拿。稳拿十年。傻的才不要。来签约吧！哈哈哈。
过后，我那奸诈的老舅不理我。

版本 C:
有天和老板的老婆聊天她也这样的问我。
老板娘：今天星期五，为什么没有出去拍拖？
我：没有男朋友怎样拍拖？
老板娘：你那么可爱为什么没有？
我：因为可怜没人爱。哈哈哈。。
老板娘：哈哈。时间还没到啦。你那么好那么可爱。会遇到的啦。
我：恩是咯。谢谢。但心里的OS: 我可爱？我不觉得哦。
...

唉。真的没有嘛。为何大家都不信呢...
以前的我会觉得很无奈。很讨厌被这样问。现在我因该都麻木了吧。偶尔，会草草的代过。
每当别人这样的问我时，而我的答案是“没有”。很奇怪的每个人都会很惊讶 “做么没有？”
我没有男朋友很奇怪吗？没有就没有。又有什么办法嘛？又不是我不要，而真的是还没遇到嘛。

有位朋友她说。“ 那些让你看上的男人，而没看上你真的是瞎了。你那么好，跟你在一起可以很快乐。每天那么癫，嘻嘻哈哈的。而你笑起来好甜。我喜欢你笑容。”
还是第一次被人这样夸奖。那时的我还真得有点paiseh。而我也只能说谢谢。这位友人呢，已经被调走了，唉……我还真的很想她。

单身没有什么不好的呀。单身有单身的好。能自由自在的。想去哪里就去，想做什么就做。但有时还真的很寂寞。

往好处想吧。单身到表着自由。

阿嬷

2011-06-10T22:19:00.002+08:00

无奈的阿嬷，那么的无助，那么的辛苦的职能比手划脚的来表达她想要的事。
现在的我真的很希望我有超能力，能力去知道阿嬷心里在想什么。
每次看见阿嬷那么无助的眼神，我心就一阵痛。
每次看见阿嬷流泪，我眼泪也不知觉就流下来。
每当我告诉他要回KL了，她就紧紧的抱着我，感觉好像不想要让我回去。
那时的我真的有股冲动想留下。
她喜欢握着我们的手，捏阿捏阿，像是想告诉我们什么的。
就有一天，她捏着我的手，捏着捏着，阿嬷就流下了眼泪。
我就很自然的抱着他，我问：“嬷，你做么哭？很辛苦是吗?” 阿嬷点头。
我那时也跟着哭了起来。而我只能很无助的抱着他，安慰着他。
跟她说，我们每个人都会在这里陪着你直到你能走路，说话。
你的辛苦我们知道，你的无奈我们也知道。
只是这病，是要靠时间，靠你的意志，才会慢慢的好转。
阿嬷，慢慢来，我们都在你身旁陪着你。
阿嬷，加油。期待着健健康康的你。

阿嬷，加油！

离别

2011-03-28T23:25:00.002+08:00

每个人的世界都有不同的人进进出出。
形形色色的人。
不同的人，有不同的分量。
有些人是你一辈子都不会忘记的人，而有些因为时间而慢慢忘记的人。
每个人都会在你的心里留下那些难忘的回忆。
有好的，开心的；有坏的，伤心的。
而我们都会从中学习到一些事非。
了解每个人的心里在想什么。
每一个离别都会留下一些些美好的回忆。
我珍惜这些回忆。有时想起，还会不知觉的微笑。
谢谢这些人在我生命里所留下的痕迹。

Nothing In Between

2011-03-10T23:35:00.007+08:00

Wanna read?
If yes come and ask me what it is.. and see if i tells you...
If don't want.. then don't even bother. Since I DON'T CARE

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- What are we? -

Fall 7 times stand up 8 times.

2011-03-08T00:51:00.002+08:00

Life's full of obstacle, challenges, and a lot shitty stuff that somehow you wished that it wouldn't happens.
That’s what we called life. If life is just like a piece of blank paper. Isn't it dull? Boring?
Challenges, Obstacles are just like color pencils. First, We might have problems mixing them together. But after we mixed them together isn't it will be colorful? and we will get lotsa lotsa pretty pretty nice pictures? of course we will and we treat those failed as lessons. Learn from the mistake and create a better one.
After a lot of crappy things happen recently, been crying for sometimes. Heartbroken, stressed out, lost. All sort of shit felt in a week. Talked to my boss, my BFF, my mum and I’m glad they are around. After crying, I felt that I'm kinda back to my old self again. Happy; content of what I have now. Learn from the setbacks and stand straight up to face the next challenges.
God gave me challenges and also He gave me solutions. He just waiting for me to look for it. because whenever God closes a door, SOMEWHERE he opens a window!. So I’ll just let God decide everything for me and I’ll happily accept the decisions. Of course I might be sad for awhile or a long times. Whatever is decided is decided, can’t really change it. But that's what makes life so wonderful. There’s always up and down.
Every things happens for a reasons. Whatever is yours is yours, even you forcibly to get something but in the end you will also lose it. Can’t force what not yours to be yours.
I’m one of those that can’t handle problems well. Mostly I will just let it be and somehow it will be solved. For me, time is always the best solutions as Time can makes baby grown into adult; Illness to be cured; life to be ended. No matter how hard how difficult life is, time always allowed me to think, to do what’s right, what’s for the best.
Once my friend told me, "Appreciate what you have now, don’t think so much for those unrealistic stuff. Be content and you'll happy"
I’m really blessed with many friends and family who loves me and I loves you all too.
Moi, thank you for standing by my side when I fell. Because you are here, that’s why I’m always able to stand up again. I can’t really imagine what I might become if you weren't around. Thanks for everything..

- Fell and stand back up-

Cried

2011-03-02T23:20:00.001+08:00

I'm really so stressed out working under this current leader. With those workload she gave is like I'm a AI who can handle so many things. So I went and "ask" my previous leader to pull me back and of course the conversation include many jokes.

After asking my previous leader(Uncle Yap)to request me back for don't know how many times. Today finally I kinda break down after talking to him.

When I was talking with one of my colleagues saying that he doesn’t pull me back as he thought that I was joking… swwtt.. so I went and kacao him saying that I'm serious about wanna go back to help him and joking on the part that I wanna quit.

When he was trying to talk to me about why I can't go back, the consequences, the purpose he wanna me to stay in this team and et cetera et cetera et cetera…

Sure. I sure know a little about this and that. But is kind of depressing for me to stay in this team…

What I relief about is that my previous leader understand my current situation. and he told that if he takes me back, sure will let others jerit at. What he said after made me cried.

He said "BUT i no take u, i worry u.. becoz i know ur situation, they 3 seems like throw all rojak to u, 1 day u die.."

“ ... hold a while, i will move when time being.. i put on my mind de.. every of u all is i train de, everyone oso got diff strength, diff capability, i look all this in my eyes… but sometimes jus need timing, location and humanity… now think +ve 1st, this can help u thru de.. how ? focus 1 thing at a time, although many thing flows to u”

My eyes filled with tears after reading this. right in front of my workstation where there's people in front of me. and of course I quickly walk to the toilet and clean off..

After that, I told him that 'I'm holding on le.. If I'm not thinking positive I've already cabut and mostly is because of you that I'm still here. Currently, I'm hanging by a thread. When that thread is broken, I will be finding you crying. By then remember to save me..'

What else can I do now? Uncle yap ar.. you tell me to hold on.. I'm holding on for you. Please take me back fast before I break down.

-depressed-

Workaholic? FML!

2011-02-23T22:30:00.002+08:00

been staring at this blank page and hands on the keyboard for 1 and a half songs time.
my brain now is full of my work’s program. thinking the flow and how I should do with the key field and everything. Luckily there's no paper and pen right in front of me, if not I probably will just draw the flow out and write everything down.. OMFFGGGG.. I'm not a workaholic! I’m going insane!
I'm so busy till doesn't have the time to go toilet. Everyday, lunch at 1pm. So breakfast is very important for me as its prevent me from starving. Been working like a cow. My leader takes one person as three person to monitor which means one person have to do three person's work. so can you imagine the how big the workload is?
Everyday rush rush rush rush rush. It' driving me nuts!
I miss movie time, I miss Friday’s K-lunch! I miss Aman Suria's Char Siew and Hakka Mee, I Miss Xing Yuan Long's White Coffee, I miss KD's Chilli Pan Mee, I miss adik Minum, I miss chui shui time.
I MISS EVERYTHING IN KPMG!! except the time where I need to push people to do work and rush work!
Although working in the bank, has it own benefits, cheap nice food, easy transportation which means I can go back whenever I like (when my lead is not around ), and I can focus my work without any distractionssss since KPMG is kinda a stress free working environment whereby I'm able to walk here and there, talk here and there, slack whenever I want. When can I go back KPMG and enjoy the time there?
Lately, I’m getting a little emo again... Due to stress? Most probably.. Kinda not satisfied with the things I do. Always regretting doing something as I always never think before I act. Hmmm... I should change this but seems kinda hard to change.
My brain kinda stop functioning whenever I’m off from work. I’m already missing my life as a student where I can just skip classes whenever I feel like. Falling asleep during lecture, hanging out with my friends… Ahhhh.. I miss those time…
Working sucks to the max except for payday. $_$. I can’t have long breaks, I can’t skips work whenever I feel like it. I can’t sleep during office hours... Sometimes, I can’t even enjoy my weekends when emails keep coming in. FML X 9999999
Maybe due to the "nice" leader I'm currently following who kinda sucks to the max… Never teach me anything or explain to me clearly and expect me to know whatever shit she gave me to do… Sucks.. I usually will just stare at the screen and do nothing… Until I shiok or I bored then only I go ask my senior or ask her. Sometimes, I rather just ask my senior than her… Since that whatever she explained to me I still won’t understand. FML!
As the matter of the facts, I don’t really like this leader whereas she just knows how open and close her mouth. All she does is sit there talk and get salary and I’ll be working like a cow. All day long work work work.
We had a web where it stores those error logs found and assigned to the leader and leader will assign to their member. For this leader, she assigned without informingn us and expect us to go through thousands of thousands error log to check whether has any of it assigned to us with our names?
There’s even one time, when I was very sick… Even a tester asked me to take MC and go back home rest as I was coughing and sneezing all the time; had a very very bad cold.. Guess what… My super nice leader heard what she said and answered, “If she takes MC who helps you solve error logs?” I just kept quiet and I was soooo pissed that time… What kind of leader is this? I took off after that… sucks to have this kind of leader.. My senior took mc after 2 weeks time because I passed the virus to her… and guess what… my nice leader said, “I worked for so long, I never take MC before also.”
There you go... Another reason makes me dislike her even more. She thought we all are robots? Will never fall sick? All the work is done by us… All she does is reply mails, go meetings and asking us what’s your tasks status, whereby all of us working like hard-labors. Everything also passed to us and she’s at there shaking legs… So pissed!
After this, stage finished, I’m off le… I will request for other project or team. I can’t tolerate the way she treated us.., sucks to the max! Uncle yap ar…. When are you going to request me back.. T__T
I wore blue today and even my sweater is blue… and that concluded my feelings for today…

- FML -

我喜欢，不我恨

2011-01-22T14:46:00.002+08:00

我爱一个人逛街。想去那里就去那里。想休息就休息。想逛多久就逛多久。我能在一间店待上一个多小时。有可能我喜欢去这间但你又不喜欢。我呢就会觉得好无趣。
我爱吃蛋糕，尤其 Secret Recipe's Yogurt Cheesecake. 慢慢的在那里慢慢吃。要吃多久就多久。没有人催你快点。
我爱喝咖啡，尤其 Starbuck's Javachip. 慢慢的在那里享受。看看书，上上网，看着进进出出，形形色色的人们。有时还会看到老爷爷，老婆婆牵着手，慢慢的走过。不知觉得就会微笑，想着，这就是“幸福”。
我爱看书，虽然不像。不是课上的书。而是故事书，漫画。
我爱一个人逛书店。在里面，一本一本的慢慢看。从英文区逛到华文区，再从华文区走到儿童区。从英文书看到华文书。看到了，读到了喜欢的就会坐下来慢慢的读。喜欢就会买回家。我曾经在书店里呆了两个多小时。
我爱看卡通片。迪斯尼卡通，动漫我都喜欢。但我也知道我老了。看这些，好像怪怪的。但我还是喜欢。
我爱去戏院看戏。爱一个人静静的看着戏。但又喜欢戏后，有人倍我聊剧情。
我爱一个人坐在海边。吹吹海风，聆听着还浪声。看着小孩们玩闹。
我爱睡觉。我的记录是睡上14个小时。醒了3小时又睡上3小时。所以那时我活动的时间只有7小时。
我爱热闹，但又不能在多人的地方。我会缺氧。曾经因为这样而昏倒。吓死了我的朋友。还他们手忙脚乱的扶我到没人的地方。还有一位朋友，以为我要吐。匆匆忙忙的帮我找厕所。
我爱玩闹。有时会做出让人流汗的事情。只要有人陪我玩闹，我会玩到很癫。
我爱吃，但又容易，很快饱。所以我需要一个很会吃又爱吃的朋友帮我吃。所以我弟弟，我老爸就是我的“垃圾桶”。
我爱在家穿大大件的衣服，松松的裤子。我弟弟，我爸爸的衣服就是我在家的便衣。
我爱干净，但有懒得打扫。
我喜欢和朋友出去玩。不爱一个人在家。所以你约我可能性很大我会赴约。但有时会懒惰出门。
我爱“喝茶”，因为这时候是我和朋友玩闹时间。
我爱唱歌。但不喜欢一个人唱。
我爱拍照。因为那可以把那瞬间的回忆给留下。但又照的很差。
我爱看旧照片，哪能让我想起很多事。
我爱煮饭，但不喜欢准备材料和洗碗筷。
我爱旅游，但没钱。
我不喜欢一个人吃饭，觉得很寂寞，很无聊。我爱边吃边聊天。
我不喜欢一个人在家。很无聊。和闷。
我不喜欢拖拖拉拉。要就要，不要就不要。而不是一下子不要有下说要。做人要果断点。
我不喜欢昆虫。爬的，飞的，小的，大的。有脚的，没脚的，我都怕。尤其是小强。我怕壁虎，我连青蛙都怕。
我不喜欢飞蚂蚁。一大群的在灯那里飞啊飞啊。我会起鸡皮疙瘩。
我不喜欢离别，很伤心，很无奈。
我不喜欢看恐怖片，听恐怖故事。骗我看，骗我听，就别怪我翻脸。
我不喜欢看喊打喊杀，血腥，恶心的东西。
我不喜欢等。等一两分钟还好。等上半小时？要命。
我不喜欢不问自取。不管我跟你多熟，多要好。但至少跟我说声。留个字条，留个简讯也好。
我不喜欢人说我有钱。如果我有钱你就能看见我的包包是LV，衣服是Burberry。鞋子是Jimmy Choo。我只是想把钱花在我有能力上的，来奖励我自己辛苦了一个月。穿好的，穿比较贵的，至少它耐穿。一双鞋RM80 我能穿上一年多，而且可说是每天穿，这样算贵吗？
我不喜欢爽约。答应了就要做到除非有不可避免的理由。不要开空头支票。
我不喜欢热热的天气。但又怕冷。
我不喜欢人说我拽，尤其是认识了很久的朋友。如果我拽，你不会在认识我那么久后才发现。
我不喜欢隐瞒。做人就要坦荡荡的。人前人后是不一样的。在你面前很好，在你背后捅你几十刀。
我不喜欢被拒绝。我送你东西请收下。虽然我还是会默默地收起来如果你拒绝。但那是我情愿给你的，你不收我会很伤心。

嗯..还有很多很多的我喜欢，不我恨。来吧！来了解我，你就会知道了我是个怎样的人。冷血，冷酷，霸道，任性，好玩，大剌剌，三八；你们来评论吧。

- 这就是我 -

Shopping Spree

2011-01-19T00:14:00.003+08:00

CHINESE NEW YEAR SHOPPING!!!
Is the one time that I can shop till I drop! YEAH!!!! since it is just once a year…

spent 2 weekends shopping for CNY clothes. thinking should I continue this weekend also?

Bought lots of lots of clothes and I spent nearly RM700++. RM700+!! on these things! o.O

First time, after starting to work I spent so much on clothes! omggg.. and now I’m officially broke. All I can do now is wait and wait and wait for my company to give out monthly allowance.

A week before, I went to Sunway Pyramid and 1 utama to shop for clothes. When I walked into Sunway Pyramid's Dorothy Perkins and there's one dress caught my eyes. Black dress with polka dots. I like it a lot but ended up didn't buy it because it is black color. Next day, went to 1 utama again, walked into Dorothy again, look at that dress again. I got the rush to just grab it and just pay it! but ended up didn't because it is B-L-A-C-K!

So I went back home, I googled that dress and saw another one Red dress! same design but it is red without polka dots. But it seems that it is not available in Malaysia's Dorothy.

So, I showed it to leeloo that polka dots dress and told her that I love it! and she said "Still wait for what? Just Buy! Once a year only! BUY!"

Then I decide, I will try my luck too see whether is that red dress available or not.. BUT.. sighhh.. Don't have. So I bought that polka dot dress which I’ve been eyeing it for long!

I love it! A LOT!

Actually don't feel like buying new shoes for CNY, since I've already bought a pair recently. But, for girls shoes will never get enough even if you have 100 pairs! So I got myself 2 pairs!! hahaha..

One is flats from Summit and another one is zebra strips sandals from Charles and Keith. Sandals is still in Singapore, waiting for my friend to bring it back for me! lalalala…

- shopaholic -

We. Us.

2011-01-13T00:16:00.003+08:00

From 2006 – 2011. 5 years we have been together. going to the same hall listening to the same boring lecture blabbing those long complicated lessons which it is not complete in the notes they had given. You are always sitting up front and I'm always sitting at the back. You will be paying your full attention, listening and jotting down those words coming out from lecturer’s mouth and I will be at the back having my fun with the boring-ness or dozing off in the cold lecture hall. Even being together for 5 years, we just start being friends in the 3rd year.

First impression, I had on you was. "wow, what a pretty girl". Do you know I was kind of afraid of you and never liked you? Maybe is because you seems so fierce; so proud.

When I was told by your boyfriend that you are going to be in the same company as me and I was like "oh Shit! o.O ".

However, we hit off immediately after started to work. You claimed that we are BFF after just being together for few days. The first impression I had was not right. After hanging out together, then only I know. You are truly a devil inside out. (and I was right, you are fierce.)

I like to put my arms in yours. I remembered that one time you don’t let me and we went crazy dragging and pulling each others in the shopping mall. We looked like two crazy fools, playing in the mall. Laughing.

Loves the 2 hours times in K-Lunch with you. Singing all we can. Shouting all we can. Getting high with 为了你而活. Now whenever I listened to this song and 叶子, I will think of you.

Taking off our shoes and walking around in the bank, always makes people speechless.

Always eating breakfast together in Otah-Otah or bank's canteen; ah – pui's ham cheese sandwich. You will be drinking apple with sour plum without ice and I will be drinking coffee ice.

Eating lunch at Lao Di Fang, Petaling Street, playing, taking off our shoes, learning new language, teasing our senior, Kenneth and complaining while working was how I passed my time during Internship.

When we have nothing to do, we would be reading those novel you downloaded. (when are you gonna give me the latest updates? )

I don't know whether do you remembered. Once,you called me and you was crying. Telling me things about you and we talked heart to heart till "early" morning. Next day, I went to find you and had lunch together. You looked like gold fish. After that, we became even closer.

Fortunately, we were together during internship. If not I can't imagine how boring I will be. Even you are hard to pleased, you're still fun to be around.

After graduated, we were together again in the same company. I thought that we were going to work together once more. However, you decided to go overseas to further your studies.

Blame it on luck, your plan didn't goes as you wished. You called me crying again. Even though, you ended up being stuck here; we became even more closer. You took all the time you can to get numb over it and now you are happy working in another company.

We are still able to hang out and have fun. Updating each other about our life.. Having you around is another joy I have.

You are always one of the pair of ears, the pair of eyes, the pair of hands I can depends on when I needed it. A friend when I can keep and trust. Do you trust me?

You promised that we will always be BFF. By then, don't you leave me alone.

PS：You know who are you and this post feels like I’m making a love confessions.

- just us -

什么是情，什么是爱

2011-01-08T13:24:00.002+08:00

情为何物呢？
经历了我在这 22 年里从来没看过的痴情女。
刚刚，我还以为我在看电视剧呢……
这一个故事让我想起之前我另一个朋友（S）的事。
S 呢就和他四年的男朋友分手了。之前呢，已经有在分分合合了。但在我们读书的第三年，他们终于正式的分手。当我以为 S 已经看开了，放下了。我半夜三点，接到 S 的男朋友 E 的电话。那时我已经睡了，模模糊糊的，接听了他的电话。
E 说：“不好意思打扰你睡觉，但是麻烦你去跟 S 说不要那么烦好不好。都分了就别再有任何希望了。” 我又在模模糊糊的说好的。没问题。
隔天起床时，我还以为我是在做梦。看了手机通话记录才知道原来不是。就问他发生了什么事。他说 S 叫他身边的朋友每天和 S 报告他今天做了什么，和谁聊天…… 然后 S 就去问 E 什么的。我突然觉得 S 有点变态。E 就说他想打人。打那个和 S 报告的人。我劝了一天，叫他不能啊，会闹出人命。因为…… E 会功夫。如果真的打，我真的觉得那个人应该会剩下半条命，要不然就会在医院出不来。
我还记得他说 S 去了他家找他。在他房里等他。那时 E 刚洗完澡，他只围了一条毛巾就看见 S 坐在他的床上像个幽魂看着他。E 被吓死了。赶快拿了件裤子就跑出门了。S 好像在他房里坐了几个小时，然后就默默的离开。
觉得好恐怖哦。如果我是 E 我也会落跑……
好了那是以前的故事。现在 S 和 E 都有自己的生活。5
而刚刚的感情纠纷就是……
我这朋友 W 他和前女友 T 分了一年半。要分手也是 T 说的。而分手的理由是，T 要出国留学。但 T 在外国时，还半夜打电话给 W 说好想他，什么的。W 也陪她聊了几个小时。
而刚刚 W 来载我出门。T 就夺命连环 call 的找 W。 W 就开始觉得烦，就叫我跟 T 说现在他不在。没带电话。我就说了。 T 有好像喝醉了。一直在那里说要跟他说话一句就好。W 就叫我挂断，而我真的就挂了。然后 T 总共打了快四十通电的电话。
过后 W 决定和 T 见面说清楚。但还没来得及说 T 就这样扑了过来，死抱着 W 不放。我和 W 的朋友 J 就在车里看 “戏”。我和 J 真的就是凑热闹的去看“戏”。
W 突然就看了过来。我就说“W 在求救了，你还不下去帮忙？”J 就笑着下了车。帮忙去。但是还是失败。J 就拖着 W 走。因该是说 “落跑”。哈哈哈
而 T 就这样冲过马路，又在抱着 W 不放。不管 W 如何的扯，也扯不掉。T 就像个强力胶一样的粘着 W。我傻眼了。因为好危险哦。如果有车的话，就真的闹出人命。 T 就一直在那里哭着说 “为何你要那样的对我。是你追我在先，而现在又不理我。你不觉得你很过分？” W 也说 “ 说分手的是你，现在说我过分也是你。你到底想怎么样？我和你已经是不可能了。”
想不想戏剧？我猜 J 一定在那里偷笑。而他还真的在那里笑。
而我也看得出 W 快要打人了，J 也在那里“骂”。而我也抽一脚的去“骂”。 W 也跟她说明了，分手了。没有任何瓜葛了。T 就在那里发酒疯。哭啊哭啊。然后， T 的朋友就劝 W 先倍 T 回家，因那时已经半夜两点了。W 就坐上 T 朋友的车， J 就驾着 W 的车跟上去。
突然……
J ：好不习惯驾Waja。
我：哈？那你小心驾，我把我的命交在你手上。
J：哇！不要给我压力啊。我有点近视。帮忙看车。
我：我也是。那么我们小心点。
J：我们会不会跟错车？
我：不会吧。我看不到车牌吔。如果真的跟错。会很好笑的哦……
J：哈哈哈。不会啦。
我：希望是。
然后 J 问 “现在，还有那么痴情的女生啊？现在的女生不是都拿得起放得下的吗？”
我就说“只能说这女生很傻。人家都说了那么明了，为何还要这样。那样不是会让人跟烦嘛类的还是自己”
J 说 “ 那要看另外一个会不会有向挽回。但 W 一定是不会。”
到了 T 的家，W 就直接冲上车锁了门。 T 也就跑了过来，整个人就贴在车上。不走。不管如何的拉。那时我真实了 T 真的是醉了。那时的我真的好累，好困。我就开骂了。真的骂。因为真的不耐烦了。
W 跟不爽了。他拿了我的水瓶，下了车就把水泼在 T 的脸上。我傻眼。J 哇了一声。T 当然是抓狂，胡乱的打 W。然后又哭着拉他。W 摔开了 T，上了车。T 也被他的朋友拉回家。而我也看到，T 在那里一直哭。抱着她家人哭，就觉得好可怜。邻居也出来看发生了什么。我和 J 就在车里安安静静的回家。
精彩把？但我有点同情 T，也觉得她好傻哦。为何呢？男人也不要你了，为何那么死抓着不放呢？累得还不是自己？要那么的折磨自己吗？世上又不是没有男人了，干嘛要这样折磨自己。放下不是跟好, 好让自己活得开心点。相信下一个会跟好。
我呢？以后会不会像 T 那样呢？我觉得不会。因为我不会那么的折磨自己。让自己活得开心点，是给自己最好的礼物。

- 爱情是什么呢 -

Holly Jolly

2011-01-06T22:24:00.010+08:00

25 December, a Jolly Holiday for everyone around the world to gather and have fun together.

Regardless the religions, skin colors and what-so-ever, everyone just gathered at one place and rock this holiday!

For me. I hanged out with my colleagues aka friends aka ex-college mates and had the Christmas mood together. Went to The Sanctuary (The Curve) to drink drank drunk! The Vodka they gave tasted disgusting. Can't really explain what it really taste like. Just one cup of it and I changed to drink others. yuckkk... Still prefer Absolut Vodka. Yummm.. Still got one bottle back home waiting for me..

funny things do happen when there are people who get 75% drunk.

For example:

LooLoo was told that the way she sat was sexy. Someone wanted to take the photo and good thing is I'm big enough to block half of the view. lmao
The way she sat makes someone doesn't dare to looks into her eyes.
Got asked by someone for her number which she doesn't know how to reject. Then got me laughed at till now.. hahaha..

Anyway. I had fun that day. Although there were awkward. boring. silent moments.

A Seating place where we asked for very long time

First and Last Time going there.

boon and LooLoo Moi

Jerry Loon Fung

Me Boon Loon

AiLing WenFei Loon LooLoo Penny Boon

Loon LeeLoo Me

Penny Loon Jerry Boon

- Holly Jolly Christmas -

沉默

2010-12-29T23:45:00.000+08:00

沉默的时间比吵闹来得多。

为何我们会变成这样呢？

我好累哦。

每天都要掩饰自己，

还能开开心心的和你在一起玩闹。

真的累了，

所以我选择离开。

Santa

2010-12-23T07:45:00.000+08:00

Oh, jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
In a one horse open sleigh
Jingle bells, jingle bells
Jingle all the way
Oh, what fun it is to ride
In a one horse open sleigh

Two Days Till Christmas..

Merry Christmas~!!

-Wish List-

In Loving Memories

2010-12-21T22:48:00.003+08:00

Missing you, uncle.

can't express what i really felt when i got the news. but at least now you are back Home with grandma and Lord Jesus. In the best way you can be.

You had left each one of us with great memories and loves.

Thanks you for everything. I will always remember you, sitting on the couch watching movie on astro, eating kuachi in the living room, your jokes and your loud laughter with Aunty Jenty.

Missing you always..

37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us.38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth,nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. - Romans 8:37-39

Love.

Kindness.

Selfless.

Strong Will.

-in loving memories, dear uncle-

nothing else

2010-12-18T23:39:00.005+08:00

i got complained by my cousin asking me why i didnt update my blog. and i answered her because im lazy.

so im back once again.. i might mia again sooner or later..

seriously, after started to work ive getting more and more lazy. doing nothing else but sleep and watch movie. working from monday till friday and ot every night. sometimes even saturday too needs to work. and how great since im having the best time of my life. just work and work. i spend my weekend mostly sleeping and do nothing. just lay back and sleep back home. working is not fun. i miss my life as student (not when doing assignment and having finals), where i can just skipped classes when i dont feel going or when the lecturer is a snob.

ive been working for 8months now. how time flies. and in these 8 months everyday get stressed out by my seniors with all those task piling up. im so stressed out. and once i washed my hair and got freaked out by the amount of hair that got washed out and after combing my hair.. ishh.. with this sooner or later im gonna be bald. maybe is time to get a haircut or can i replant the hair that came off back to my scalp? sound so painful. urghh.

all i can says is working life sux to the max! i need holiday.. cant wait for my xmas holiday and cny holiday!

peek-a-boo a view outta my bed room window when is clear blue sky.

and there's a construction next to it. with all the noise in the morning how are people going to sleep. but good thing is.. i sleep like pig. even there's loud noise or the sun is shining bright.

loving the weather this months with the cool breeze and is a great weather to sleep.

there's always clear blue sky without blazing sun. but my clothes cant dry! can i have a sunny day so all my clothes can dry?

this pretty cousin of mine is leaving malaysia for US to study. so i wish you good luck abundantly and have a great life there. ♥ you much

- still breathing even life sux-

Resurrection

2010-08-31T23:07:00.003+08:00

im back...
for don't know how many months i left my blog dead... lolz...
i was so demotivated as i already ended my life as student and now is a working adult. :(

after working for 5 months, i'm already missing my relaxing life as a student.... but not missing the part where i need to rush assignment, test, and exam... :p

I felt that working is like doing assignment everyday where you gotta rush the work before the due date. after the due date you don't have time to relax... gotta continue another assignment.

but still i'm enjoying my life.. hanging out with my friends, having up and downs in life. :)

life isn't that bad.. hehehe

anyway, my blog need a updated photo of me.. :)

jiang jiang jiang jiang~~~~~

Batch 18

2010-04-24T23:30:00.029+08:00

bah~ my blog has been deserted for a month.. hahaha.. but still in this one month.. I joined the AS/400 training in Silverlake with a bunch of new comer.

they are The craziest bunch of people i ever met
all we do in the 20 days of training is joke and joke and joke. in this 20 days we did a lot of stuff

farewell party for Yong Han, Surprise Birthday For me, Genting trip, PD trip, Tao Buffet Dinner, and a lot of other crazee things

ate Pork For a week.. die me non-stop! we even went Klang to eat Bak Kut Teh during office LUNCH HOURS! hahaah

met new friends, and loving each of them. Joy and Laughter never fade. :)

for me, the 20days of training is totally like a holiday for me. Seriously, been cracking up jokes with them. really made me enjoyed myself. and not making the wrong decision of coming back earlier. hahaha

in this 20 days, i think that i had taken nearly 500+ of photos. wtf! thats a lot. and i spent 2 hours to tag 180+ photo in facebook. i tagged until eyes blur... @_@

Genting Trip (16 April 2010 - 17 April 2010)

went up to genting just for steamboat and camwhore. hahaha

In this bus, on the way going up to take the cable car

and that was the first time i take cable car up in the dark! CREEPY LIKE SHIT lor!
don know whether to open eyes or close. (so i choose to close) hahahaa

yi Qian Koo and Addy

nearly the whole gang who went genting

front: sindy, tiensing, qian, koo, peiyee, bell, sengkor,

back: colin, francis, teh, william and me

the guys as background

but got two did not!

just continue cam-whoring

me and seng kor... who was drunk hahahaa

me with the guys of course...

Qian, koo, william, me, peiyee, bell and sindy

The SHOES GROUP PHOTO! Typical

seems like everyone love taking kasut punya photo andthe one wearing slipper is me!

hahahah

cam-whore till half way this too fall asleep~

cuz they are drunk! hahaha

man i love this picture!!!

seng kor sleeping style... geng or not

sleep in between the table gap...

me and yiqian

after Genting we went PD

at first we booked a apartment call cocobay. wtf... the apartment is creepy and eerie lor... no beach only got pool wtf...

dark like shit! no road side lamp post.. luckily we manage to change to another apartment...

Addy and seng kor potraiting titanic

and the back are the passenger in the ship

hahaah

3ofus

qian peiyee and me

me and qian

clear blu sky at PD~! :)

after that we went seremban to have the crabby...

The after the test we cam-whore in the auditorium room! hahaha

all the batch 18!

the girls with the Pork Pork Pig Society President

cuz everytime ask what to eat for lunch he sure says PORK! =_=

that's why we promote him as the president. haha

3ofus again

3ofus + william acting cute.
he likes to act

act cool, act cute act stupid, u name it he act. lolz

after that we went to the terrance there to yumcha and camwhore hahaa

3ofus again

then in the training room

me shiny and colin

the yellow team. lolz

those who wear specs..

then we went tao for dinner!

the oyster damned nice damned fresh lor
shiok lor!

next table...

this dude. ive no idea what he ate till he can seems like drunk. and fall asleep. ahaha

GROUP PHOTO! :)

last photo of me at the door..

-loving the 20days with batch18-

ps: a picture worth a thousand words.. im dead lazy to write... cheerio~

officially working

2010-03-29T23:02:00.002+08:00

i had already stepped into the working world~
i had already kissed goodbye to my study life~

I'm now Officially working.

March 29. First day of work
done nothing because is training time. Train to use the new language.

just crapping with seniors and meeting new friends.

i'm dead lazy to write.

graduate and........

2010-03-06T02:55:00.004+08:00

the first thing i did when i open my eyes was to turn on my lappy logged in to TARC web and click Check Result and and and I PASSED ALL!!! Yaahhooooo

[yum sheng!] [fireworks] [applause] [big big big grinzzzz]

wtf i was so nervous when wanna click the stupid link to check my result and with the cleverness of TARC they separate two different days to release my full result. wtf. and this means i had gan cheong for two days when checking my stupid result. wtf wtf wtf... although the result is not that pretty like all distinction or what-so-ever, I AM HAPPY WITH IT! as long as i do not need to see them again AGAIN!! i was soo happy with i see the remark session is EMPTY NOTHING WRITTEN! words cant express my happiness and now I'm proud to tell you all that I HAVE GRADUATED!!!!

G-R-A-D-U-A-T-E!

Finally with these crappy shitty 4 years of college to get that damned piece of paper, i've ended my college life! 4 years of up down up down up down up life and mostly down~ but i still enjoyed, learned many things, meeting new friends, and with many many lecturer sayang-ing me.(hahah muka tembok sial~)

before i even check my result... Ring ring ring...
i got any unexpected call for my dear dear dear senior from silverlake, Uncle Terry. He called asking whether want to work back in Silverlake or not. wtf i told him I haven't got my result and you knows what he said?
"Nevermind lar... You want the job or not? only got 50 applicants. if over quota, no more. after that you gotta sendiri chap sang"

i was wtf... but was 50-50 you know.... with a guarantee job, nice pay, nice colleagues. and guess what.... i ended up back to silverlake. [grinz]

then i ask when start to work. Uncle Terry said April.. double the wtf-ness! April! when he called me was already end of feb! I gotta start to work in April? A-P-R-I-L!
I haven't enjoy my holiday gao gao then want to start to work already. fml~
then i asked "April fool start work wor... you don't later i go there you tell me is tipu me de"
Uncle terry laughed and said "You lagi don't fool me. later last minutes says you don't want"

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh... i looked at the date now and think i still left 3 weeks to enjoy my holiday. sob sob sob sob

so fast so soon i gotta go back to a busy life again... anyway, i still kinda busy with the DAMNED FYP DOCUMENTATION! [swt-ness]

i spent one month staring at the MS Visual Studion 2005 and now i gotta spend another month staring at the MS Word 2007. triple the wtf-ness

and im soooo damned good at procrastinating. my dear partner has already finished hers. and mine still half-way going... wahahahahaha...

I WANT TO ENJOY MY HOLIDAYS!!

byebye FYP

2010-02-23T21:56:00.001+08:00

finally i completed my FYP. after final testing my dear supervisor, mschin gaves me a thumbs up! i was so HAPPY when I see that thumbs. finally i don't need to worry about whether i pass or fail..

yahhhooooo... I'M FREE FROM CODES!

dead with FYP

2010-02-22T06:12:00.003+08:00

Good Morning y'all~!
now is 6.12am

is the time where primary secondary students waking up preparing to go for classes.
is the time where some people laze on their bed and not wanna wake up
is the time where some people waking up for their brand new day in works.
is the time where old people waking up to have a morning. exercise, taichi, walking, running...

and

I HAVEN'T SLEEP YET!!! have been doing my stupid FYP none-stop. sit until ass pain, back pain, neck pain, eyes pain. fml

cuz will be submiting it at noon time. lets put your hands together and pray for me that i will pass it.... damned fucking worry la wei~ =_="'

and

i wanna sleep...... T__________T

and

I'M GOING BACK HOME LATER!!!!!!!

-Finally-

CNY 2010

2010-02-19T00:54:00.008+08:00

another Chinese New Year had gone. and i enjoyed myself. i had all the fun i had, all the laughter, the joy, the food and the angpow. although i said due to fyp i dont really have the mood to celebrate cny. but then when i saw my cousins there waving at me, saying hi-s, laughings. the damned fyp has already been forgotten. actually i love CNY alot. this is only when i can see my crazee family. talking and laughing, gossiping about everything.

anyway, i celebrate 臭皮匠2 (sheng) birthday which falls on the 11th. had the fun i had in months! with them around there are always laughter. 24/7 the laugh would not goes out-of-stock! and i can't hang out with them till they fly back to s'wak! fml lar...

they have been complaining to me that i cannot hang out with them. and our everyday-conversation-on-noon-time will be like this:

them: jie, later go shopping/go gaigai okay?
me: cannot lar. i have to do fyp.
them: yerrr... so sien. don't do lar...
me: cannot lar. don't do will fail lar...
them: yerrr... what happen if fail?
me: cannot graduate lor..
them: yerrr... so cham...
me: then u all go out lar..
them: okay lor.. but very sien de...

so sad betul lor... i want to enjoy my cny also damned fucking susah. wtf

me and sherine. bitch number1 臭皮匠3

sheng on her 18th birthday. :)

this is why i will not lack of laughter when they are around xD

then we had our reunion dinner in crystal inn. and the food is not nice. i mean NOT NICE. we had 2nd round dinner when we reached home with home-cook meal. XD
and surprisingly charlotte came back for CNY! thought she gonna miss cny for the first time. :)
too bad didn't get any picture with her during cny but we going to spore. so there's lotsa pic again!

me and xinli..

dragons!
han, me and xinli

ruishen ruiwen and bea

bea me xinli ju

family photo! :)

i dyed my hair.. can see can see?? lolz

i miss these bitches lar.. :(

me and sheng sheng

-fuck fyp-

Home

2010-02-08T02:26:00.002+08:00

I MISS HOME!

i seriously miss home~!

i want to go back home...... T____T

hate FYP! thought i can enjoy myself back home after exam. do shopping for cny. till now, i got none zero null nothing for cny. clothes. shoes. nothing. ahhhh. so sedih sial. looking at the fb seeing ppl posting done shopping. bought lotsa clothes. pocket burning holes. i so jeeeeleeeessss!

I WANT GO SHOPPING!!!

i want to go back home.
with tv remote on my hand.
my eyes glued on the tv screen.
my body glued on the sofa.
my mouth eating my mum's cook food.
eating bak kuah... cny biscuit.

ahhhhhh

stupid FYP!

i've been sleeping at 5am or 6am for 4days straight and woke up at noon. sleeping like that seriously can kill me. wtf!

SAS Prom Night

2010-01-28T21:22:00.012+08:00

EXAM ENDED! Yaahooooo... hopefully i won't be seeing them again~

Anyway I attended SAS prom night which was organised in Legend Hotel.
the last chance of being with my friends all together at once. all AIB2 coursemates.
i be missing you all. =)

i had fun. with all these memories given by you all.

me and kerry....
the most Handsome girl that night

mr wong. the White Knight. =)

me, ms lim, alvin, leeloo, shoon and jon

me and jon the silent but deadly award winner. XD

leeloo, alvin and me

me and mr khoolj
he is a photographer. very noisy one also.
hahahaa

Some of the AIB2 not whole.
since some not in the photo ==

Table 1

table i-dont-know-wad-number

we in the toilet. lolz
it seems like is a must to take photo in the toilet..

me and jiawen

jiayee and me

Mk me and yitpeng

me and my FYP partner..

sampat mok and me

kerry and me

AIB2 guys-mate

mr yap

AIB2 RULEZ!

me and shoon...

after that we went genting. so damned sien

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after prom i gotta do FYP which is due feb1
so sien so cham
seeing all my housemate going back makes me want to go back too.....

my mum called me just now. ask me why haven't come back since finished exam. then i said i also want to go back but i can't!!
i still got soooo many things to do... so sad-nya...

-fyp-

FML

2010-01-22T23:09:00.003+08:00

FML #1
I hate examination so much. who the hell invented it... urghh.

FML #2
~~15/01 Web Services~~ (DEAD, GONE)
~~20/01 Business Data Communication~~ (50-50)
23/01 Management of change (SURE DEAD)
26/01 Software Project Management (LAGI MATI! GONER)

although only have for subject but these four subject is KILLING ME!
and even they have so many days off in between with all those crazy things need to memorize it is totally not enough.

Look at the notes and shitty crappy things i need to memorize...

This is how my table looks like during exam period
small and messy

and the screen was FaceBook. wahahaha...
im blaming on FB for distracting me from studying... lolz

FML #3
I'd planned to start study on the 11th. but i slack and procrastinate until 13th only start studying and making notes.
wtf.

damned it man~!

FML #4
Even though I'm currently stuck in the examination period.
I still painted my nails!
actually is purple but no idea why it looks blue here.

FML #5
After examination, I HAVE NO BREAK!
I've to do my Final Year Project (FYP) wtf!
I though i can have a break and enjoy myself with shopping and get back to BP right after it! But I can't I have to stay here until 10th! wtf wtf wtf wtf WTF!

01/02 First Pre-System Testing
10/02 Second Pre-System Testing/ Final System Testing
22/02 Final Testing.

if during the first testing, my FYP system has no problem I will able to ENJOY my CNY

IF NOT! ARGHHH!

FML #6
I haven't buy my CNY Clothes! wtf... I've no time to shopping... how how how?!

-FML FML-

no purpose.

2010-01-05T22:20:00.010+08:00

urgh. i didn't sleep last night cause doing the stupid assignment WebService which cause me so many trouble!

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anyway, i'm here to update recent happenings like Christmas, New Year, birthday..

actually i had a very simple Christmas back at Batu Pahat. A lot people asked me why doesn't want to celebrate at KL.. Is not that i don't want to celebrate in KL, is just that I wanna celebrate with the people that are meaningful to me who are my crazee friends, wendee, lindsay marie...

and

I also celebrated Marie's 21st birthday on 25 December, yeah she is a Christmas Baby. =D

ta-da. thats Marie, she is a dancer~ =)

Group Photo!

danny marie wendee marie

marie me me joshin

marie and lindsay

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then actually i didn't really celebrate New Year, i just slack at home. hahaha...

then my mum, she went to Korea and bought a lot of FOOD!
and she bought my favourite Chocolate! 白い恋人! man i love this chocolate a lot. damned nice lar.. too bad only available in Japan. =(

this potato chip chocolate damned nice lor.

i try to make in during cny. then can eat... -p

hahahaha

this is a choc cake. damned nice. the chocolate is damned rich lor.

-craving for choc-

Merry Christmas

2009-12-18T03:06:00.013+08:00

It is 3.08 am right now which I should be in bed at this time. but nope i'm here to update my blog! so first MERRY CHRISTMAS TO Y'ALL!
i love this holiday! It always been one of my favorite.
I love the decoration they have on the shopping center.. too bad that i cant go to all the shopping complex here in KL to see it.

still i do able to to see some.

KLCC
Theme: Candy House.. i think. lmao
since it has this pink house. ginger bread man.

Pavilion
I went there at night with my friends. but then when we reached there it was pouring! urgh spoilt the mood. but then after taking photo inside the complex do a little bit of shopping. THANK GOD, it stopped!

and guess who i saw there. EUNICE CHONG! damned i missed. after saying goodbye, i realised how dumb am i just stand there and talk to her without taking picture with her. wtf.

after that I went out of the pavilion and it's SNOWING!

Sungei Wang,
the deco sucks...
but i got to meet Landy... the girl who sang with Jay Chou =D

i went there to have my dinner since pavilion have to affordable meal. lolz.

---------what i should have blog long time ago----------

i bought my new camera during pc-fair and i love it sooo much! i don care if u says that i'm insane getting such a bright color. i love it. and i got myself a red converse shoes also. ahhhaa.

i've been so want to get one Lomo Diana F+, you can check out the effect of the photo here.
when i told my friends that i got a new camera they thought i bought the lomo already. sorry to disappoint you guys i didn't get it yet. cuz i'm still survey. but i found out that in the Lomography, they sell the lomo camera much cheaper than the forum. so i might buy it next year, really~! i really been waiting for it too long. dont ask me why i want to buy it... and if you are thinking what the hell is Lomography then CLICK THIS

i really like lomo edelweiss which is full white compare to the original color it is soo much nicer

and Lomo Diana CMYK which is more colorful...

hmmmm... let me see which one should i buy. *grinz*

or

since xmas is near give me Lomo Diana Edelweiss as present la. I don't mind. hahahaha

ps:/ im going back to BP for xmas. so guys. wait up im coming back!

-santa claus is coming to town-

recent updates

2009-11-28T22:47:00.008+08:00

I LOVE MY HOMETOWN BATU PAHAT because....

i can hang out with my great friends, wendee, lindsay, marie, danny

i can movie with my friend for a whole day~!

i can eat all the food i missed; rojak, cendol, ABC, fried oyster, Yong He Tou Jiang,

i can sleep till afternoon and no one waking me up.

i can sit down in the living room with tv remote on my hand watching show on the 52" screen LCD

i have someone to drive me around

and

i can spend money on A LOT of things without paying any of it by myself!

I haven't been SOOO damned happy with all the crappy workload and other shitty things past few weeks (still those crappy shitty things hasn't finished yet) .

I Love batu pahat SOO much even though I used to think how sucks how small batu pahat is..

and I watch New Moon it was only Okay okay to watch...

but

omg~! i nearly drool on Taylor's Laurent Muscle~! his six-packs... his bisepss...*faint*

although Robert Pattinson also did show his upper body still I PREFER TAYLOR'S! bwahaha... xD

and i also finished watching You're Beautiful

and the lead Jang Geun Seok is soooo damned cute and hawt!!
I love when he smile... with his eyes all become like this ^_^

and Lee Hong Ki

damned he is adorable~! like a little kiddo and damned funny inside that show... lolzz....

the OST he sang is nice to listen... =D

依然 by Lee Hong Ki

默默无语 by 4 of them.. lolz

ps: im going back tomorrow... urghhhh..... wendee lindsay marie danny wait for me~! I WILL BE BACK! ASAP! xD

- loving each seconds -

Wedding Dinner

2009-11-17T16:57:00.009+08:00

14/11/2009
Take LRT to kelana Jaya and waited half and hour for my cousin to pick me up. got stuck in the traffic. Then waited my mum at sunway's lobby. Then continue wait stupidly for 20mins while they already went up to their room.. T_____T

Then went shopping with my mum and i got nothing. NO SALES!

after that went to sunway's lounge to enjoy Happy Hours, drank wine, drank Long Island Tea then 12am went out to eat Lok Lok.

Then got lost on highway when finding ways to go Damansara Jaya.

15/11/2009
meet up with my aunts around noon time and then of course SHOPPING!

my aunt they came back from s'wak to join the wedding dinner which im not close with. although i do know who the hell is, still i langsung tak kenal.
dinner? then of course i need a dress and i got one at Dorothy. and I loved the dress~!

me and my aunt waiting for the cab

me and my dad

mum and my aunts

justin's gf... hahahaa

dad aunt sister and mum

me and my mum

me
as u can see the tables behind me are empty because it was already ended and my aunts they all are still drinking.. T___T

i love that rose... xD

me and my cousin who is half-drunk~

and i love Hoegaarden beer... Is sooo much better than heineken!

after that

then went back to the hotel

mum: what time is your class tomorrow?
me: tomorrow? tomorrow is sunday.. where got class?
mum: aiyoo tomorrow is monday lar
me: nolar. is sunday!
mum: is MONDAY! You sot already ar....
me: monday? yameh?
mum: yalar...
me: .............

wtf, im getting dementia

listening to them talking gossiping about the others, teasing each other, fun, joy, laughter. i haven't had those for a long time and im loving every moment of it.

i miss my aunts already. Listening to them talking enjoy being my ownself. the real me with them doesn't need to hide anything doesn't need to wear mask. doesn't need to think what should says what shouldn't. Just talk whatever come to my mind.

just be me.just be Penny Lim.

loving and missing it so much.

and i got another wedding dinner to go this friday.. wtf
and i can get another new dress.. bwahahaha

- boo hoo -

MIA + Laundry Bar

2009-11-17T13:43:00.000+08:00

i've been missing for quite sometimes, as there's nothing special going on. Just being me, slacking myself back at KL house. Watching korean drama, HK drama, Taiwan entertainment, Anime...

and I'm addicted to "You're beautiful" Although there's some comments say not nice what-so-ever. but to me i think is nice!! and the OST is nice.. really nice... =D

Funny... especially Lee Hong Ki! OMG... he is sooo adorable funny and innocent! hahaha

Other than this, I've been burying myself in my seminars, assignments,test.. and finally I just finished my Seminar. yeahhhooooo.... but i still need to present it. wtf.

after that, I had headache for 3 days straight wtf. Headache i went to sleep, wakes up okay already, then headache comes again. urghhh.... and it has been going on like this for 3 days. and still no improvement. wtf, i've no idea what's going on with my brain. Maybe because of the heat or what. damned it. it doesn't feels so good. Sometimes, i ended up vomiting. urghhh...

Thurdays, 12/11/2009
Today, happy birthday to Alvin Loke and Willis Woon.

Last night went to Laundry bar to celebrate Alvin's 21st Birthday with LeeLoo, Me, Won Jiun, Kerry, Weiyoong, Shooney, Sheiyee, Yenni, Meiching and ah-wu.

wonJiunn, Kerry, WeiYonng, Shirley, yenni, alvin, meiching, me, leeloo,
ah-wu

alvin, ah wu, weiyoong, shooney.

the dudes.

tasted Bloody Mary and bloody hell it doesn't taste nice at all with the tomatoes juice. Yewww..

tasted Boston* something * is nice...
Tasted Pacific Island Tea. Yummy I loved that~
Tasted Grape Delight. Nothing neither nice nor bad. just normal.

After Laundry bar we went SS2 Murni to yumcha.
wtf... my stomach was already bloated with all sort of kind cocktails and now yumcha..

then reached home at around 230am and plak on the bed and sleep till the next morning. =D

ps: no much photos, cuz the photo not with me... is with my friends and i din take from them. hahaha

Being me is being lazy

2009-10-26T20:36:00.000+08:00

Me me me
is the procrastinator...

i've been lazy
i've been slacking
i've been procrastinating
i've been don't-know-what-else-can-describe-being-lazy

There's so many things to do. Assignments, seminar, final year project, test...

and i've done NONE of it!

Seminar due 19/10/2009
and now is..... 26?
and I haven't finish it YET!
I've me self-postpone my dues since that my supervisor has gone to deliver her baby... hahaha...
Ever since i received her sms I hardly I mean REALLY HARDLY touch the seminar. Although I do open the Doc and read a bit, search for the information and then I will end up watch shows. wtf

After seminar will be FYP assignments test exam in between....

How? How? How?

Even my partner she also being lazy like me. but not as lazy as I am. lolzzz

seriously, I really have no motivation, no mood to do at ALL.

Can someone help me do it? hahahaha...

-kickass laziness-

No one.

2009-10-20T00:27:00.000+08:00

I’m feeling so helpless lately. Maybe is due to the heavy workload or what. All I know is I can’t get any help I want even I asked. They just perfunctory answer me. Do they know that their facial expression and body language already betray them by telling me they doesn’t want to help. wtf

"Friends are meant to be used."

This quote is from Jon’s Blog and this is how I’ve been feeling for years. Since secondary? Since college? I can’t remember anymore.

Why do people never thinks for others and only think for themselves? Why do they always want people to go with the way they wanted?

wtf.. Can’t they put themselves in someone’s shoes and think?

Some friends are worth to keep and some are not.

All I know that the person that I missed most cannot sit beside me and comfort me anymore.
and there is some one out there, still cares about me, talks and comfort me whenever I needed most and you know who you are my dear.

Pissed off..

ps: wtf.. im good at being emo. =___=

Genting Highland

2009-10-15T20:24:00.000+08:00

Ditched the first week class and went back to KL on Sunday. Then got dragged to Genting for 2days 1 night in order to celebrate Yenni's 21 Birthday. Theme PJ Party.

Total I had ditched 1 week and 1 day of class. SHIT... I hasn't been able to catch up with the class since I missed 1 whole week...

Anyhow I still enjoyed the time. bwhahaha

Girls group Photo at Terminal Putra LRT Station waiting for the Genting bus to arrive

jiao, liboon and me

me and yang

in cable car.

me and sotong

after checking in of course to the theme park!
in the Pirate ship.

me with Parrots~

Group Photo Before we went dinner
Jian Yang, Nene, KiatYong, SheiYee, PeiYin, Me, Yang, YingYong,Yen Zhen,Yen Ni, Mei CHoo, Jiao, LiBoon and ZhenWei

me and SheiYee
at genting-dont-know-what-restaurant
but the food is nice and EXPENSIVE...
wtf

Birthday Girl
Yenni

Bottoms up time!
is Chivas+coke

one last group photo before we went to bed!

the next day, after eating breakfast we took the bus back to home and went to class RIGHT after that. damned it was so tired.

then went to watch Surrogates with yang on wednesday, a lot people told me that is nice.. Actually I don't think is that nice at all. Not exciting also. sighhhh

ps: still got many others photo that i haven't collect. will collect it soon(maybe) lolzzz

ppss: class has started with assignments and I still hasn't finish my seminar and I have FYP to do and currently I'm procrastinating wtf

-kickass procrastinator-

Cameron Highland

2009-10-13T17:04:00.001+08:00

bah............ should have post this LONG LONG time ago.. but was lazy and lazy so now only post and wtf it has been in draft for don't know how many weeks. lmao

05 October 2009

A gang of silverlakers and TARC Trainee depart from their home to Cameron Highland.
Penny, LeeLoo, Weiyoong, and WoeiJye TARC Trainee
Terry, Willis, ChengLing, Jerry, Jerry's girlfriend, David, David's Girlfriend, ah-piang, ChengLing, KeeSiong, and HooiCheng; Silverlakers...

They had their breakfast at a Dim Sum Restourant, Sungai Buloh.

After having their breakfast, they took off and continue their journey. They rested at one of the resting area in Tapah.

WeiYoong paid the traveling fees late and taken a picture for a prove.

LeeLoo having her time eating ice-kimo....

After resting, they continue their journey up to Cameron Highland

At around noon time, THEY FINALLY REACHED CAMERON HIGHLAND!

and they took photos with the Land Rover outside the Petrol Station.

Jerry, ChengLing, Willis, WoeiJye, WeiYoong, KeeSiong, HooiCheng, David, Terry, Penny and LeeLoo

ChengLing, Willis, ah Piang,WoeiJye, KeeSiong, Jerry, WeiYoong, David, Terry

After that they checked in into their apartment Desa Apartment...

After selecting rooms and unload all the stuff.

They took off again to have their lunch at one of the restaurant.
Before they left, They met little Yellow who are nice and obedient!

Penny,Little Yellow and Hooi Cheng

After eating, they went to the strawberry farm, enjoying the vegetables, cactus and desserts.

Penny with strawberry waffle

Penny and big cactus

After that they went back and prepare their steamboat dinner.

This is what happen when people are busy preparing food and there is someone sleeping on the sofa..

Food that had prepared

After eating, of course is Happy Hours!

Black Regal, Chivas, Vodka, and Heineken Beer and of course games!

No idea what they are doing but they are in the middle of the game.

Penny, Willis, Keesiong, ChengLing, HooiCheng, Weiyoong, ah Piang, WoeiJye

At the end, WeiYoong got drunk as he keep saying lets drink 5 seconds of pure Black Regal and had no idea how many 5 seconds he did.
He went to vomit 3 times and collapse on the floor.
Ended up they have to drag him back to the bed.

WeiYoong

the only dude who are drunk after that Happy Hours.

6 October 2009
They checked out their apartment at around 11am and had their Hot Cup Breakfast!

Then they went to Bee Farms to check out those creepy little creatures

After that of course the Boh Tea Farm!

Look at the beautiful View... Mountains mountains of tea...

Went to the View Top to enjoy a better view of the Farms.

They had their tea-time at the cafe inside the farm

On the way back to town, the stop by at the waterfall in Lata Iskandar.

Then they went ot Bidor to had the Duck Noodles. Yummy! It is delicious. The soup is cooked with herbal, and the duck meat is sooooo HUGE!

Then of course back to KL and went up to the Look Out Point Gasoline to had their wonderful dinner and celebrating ChengLing's Birthday!

With a surprise CheeYee came who is another silverlakers with her boyfriend.

Finished!

2009-10-04T21:52:00.000+08:00

6 months...
just a blink of eyes, i already finished my six months of ~~torture~~ training.

Gonna miss:
I'm gonna miss every Friday K-Lunch with my colleagues...
I'm gonna miss those time gossiping/bragging/sabotaging with each other during office hours.
I'm gonna miss those stupid jokes that we cracked around during office hours..
I'm gonna miss those wonderful lunch time (free lunch of course.. hahah) with my colleagues..
I'm gonna miss Menara OCBC 8th floor cafeteria Ham Cheese Sandwich...

Not gonna miss:
I won't miss the early morning waking up which is 6am and takes 2 hours to reach my office and vice versa...
I won't miss those hours that I've to stare at the monitor and the monitor staring back at me...
I won't miss those days that I've to lotsa lotsa work waiting for me to do..
I won't miss those days that I've to forever copy-ing and pasting things...
I won't miss those days that I've to rush all those things to meet the deadline..
I won't miss those days that I've to test and print screen...

Conclusion: I'm sooooooo NOT gonna miss my 6 months training! Hhahaha

Ps: Going to Cameron Highland later! hahahaah...

Hair

2009-09-23T21:40:00.000+08:00

Mum: Your hair cut until too thin lar.....
Me: Yameh? I think ok wor...
Mum: Yalar... Next time don't cut until like that not nice lar
Me: I also don't know de... I went there and said I want to trim a little bit only cuz end split already. I mana tau the hair dresser pandai pandai go cut until like that wo...
Mum: Aiyo... Next time don't go there..

Next Day, While I'm washing dishes...

Mum: Your Hair really very thin lar...
Me: .....
Mum: Aiyo, Last time your hair nicer... fluffy fluffy wan...
Me: Ya meh?
Mum: Yalar....
Me: Orh....

The Next Next Day, while we eating...

Mum: Your hair thin until flat flat wan. Not nice not nice
Me: ....
Mum: next time don't cut until like this.
Me: ...
Mum: Next time cut like last time, fluffy fluffy.
Me: ...
Mum: Why no answer????? sighhh
U ar... Don't ask to straighten your hair anymore. Not nice.. Change hairstyle.
Me: Change to what? Year end i want color hair. What Color leh?
Mum: COLOR AGAIN?! siggghhh... Red Purple lar....
Me: Nice meh??? I still prefer red wor..
Mum: Red again? Purple lar...
Me: See how 1st lar...
After that, My mum langsung don't want to layan me anymore. Cuz i will need her to dye my hair~ hahahaha.... and she hated it... =P

I went back home to enjoy holiday and all my mum do is complain about my hair... My hair got that bad meh??
T_________________T

Anyway, all i did while i was back home was eat eat eat... hahahahah
I'm already missing BP's Food~!

Leaves

2009-09-15T20:15:00.000+08:00

Departs is one part of life.

Recently, i heard my housemate said that one of his friends got leukemia and he is dying.. He is just around my age. OMG, suddenly make me realize that life is so short. One day you were healthy as a horse and the next day you will be as weak as a corpse.

Suddenly it make me think of my Grandma. I missed her. Remember all those things I did get to do with her. I Missed her laughter. Her laughter is always a joy to me. Listening to her talking about her past was my favourite past time and now no more........

Now i am glad that i am still alive, trying to live to the fullest and the best in it. Live with a life without regret.

Merdeka!

2009-08-31T21:20:00.000+08:00

What an coincidence when i took the same bus back to batu pahat and back to KL!!!

However this bus sucks...

First on friday this stupid bus air con broke down... the whole trip from pudu to ayer keroh(near malacca) the bus was HOT like im in sauna! Then the driver stop at the Jejantas there and don't know do what with the engine then finally the air con is REPAIRED! if not i can't imagine the whole trip 4 hours sitting in the SAUNA! urghhh

Then I took the same bus back to KL i should go buy 4D lolzzz...
and wtf the bus broke down half way at TAMPIN! also near Malacca. wtf wtf wtf!

shit first the aircon and now the WHOLE BUS! wtf~!

then for i think more or less 15 minutes the bus driver went down and don't know do what with the engine AGAIN. The bus start functioning again. And he drove all the way back to KL again with the bus broken down half way without a real mechanic looking at the engine.
wtf it really creeps me out. but still i'm safely arrived at KL... thank god~

I've been really lazing myself back home...
After eating my lunch i will be lying on the sofa with the tv controller on my hands and flipping through the channel checking for any nice movie to watch. and i realised that Astro nowadays doesn't have nice movie to watch EVEN on weekends!! wtf.
then i been rotting all the way at home for 3 days straight. without moving myself away from my comfort zone which is the SOFA! hahaha...

realised i can only really really be myself and stress free is at BATU PAHAT my HOME-SWEET-HOME...

and

seriously, me and xinli are dead lazy like sloth. and i've no idea where we get the genes from. who else are like us in Lim Family... hahaha...

- sloth-ing -

Birthday~

2009-08-15T14:49:00.000+08:00

Went back to Batu Pahat to celebrate joshin 21st birthday on the 8 August 2009. But all the picture is with her cousin and she said most probably one month later only able to get it.. sooo
wait and see lar.. hahahah

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then 12 August 2009, Went to Happy for Season Cafe to celebrate Mei Ching's 21st Birthday.

this one is done by sue who the is one wearing yellow shirt in the photo with me
then the rest is done by me... =))

i like these lights a lot. hahah
=))

I'm Back!!

2009-08-01T21:35:00.000+08:00

I CAN'T LIVE WITHOUT BLOGGING...
shit lar... I was so bored without blogging. hahaha...

So what have i been doing since i was out of my blogs
I've been rotting all the way during that time.
hahaha...

so i decided to change my blog layout to represent the new me~!
Yeah!! now is orangie... hahaha
Represent A brighter side of me
Not the black emo side anymore.
Most probably sooner or later I will start emo-ing. again. hahaha

I still stuck in Bandar Utama, Silverlake having my half year internship.
Learned a lot of stuff. Get to know a lot of wonderful people. Love it there although travelling from there back to home and vice versa is torturing. but the rest is fun~! and i left one month plus only. so sad~

Sooo now would be PHOTO-ING!!! As I've haven't been blog for damed long time and things do happen everyday!

newest member added into the KL house. BB the mini schnauzer

yeah, your eyes are not kidding you, that's Z-Chen 张智成。
He came to Station One near my house to promote his new album.
And we 3 Yenni, SheiYee and Me "blocked" him on his way out and took photo with him! lolz...

This dude is Z-Chen's junior..
He was in the car waiting for Z-chen and we asked him to come down and take photo with us. bwhahaha

sorry i forgot his name. hahahaha

O-Neh, Z-Chen's Junior, Zhen Wei

then celebrated ah-Wong (senior from silverlake) birthday on the 24th June at 1Utama Neway.

Jay, ah-piang, weiyoong, ah-Wong, Me, LeeLoo.

then celebrate ne ne birthday on the 28th... =)

ta-da! that's the birthday boy~!
ne ne = ah pu ne ne (indian)
cuz he is damned dark~ =P

meiching, yenni, ne ne, yang yang, me and zhen wei

sheiyee me yenni and house new member. B-B (if u can see it lolz)

me and ne ne

Then, on the July 31st we went Sing K again with Silverlake's Senior again those usual gang.
Terry Yap, Jerry Moo, David Goh, Ah-Piang, CheeYee(jiejie aka Nanny), WeiYoong, jay, me, leeloo and ah-wong.

and that was the Last time i got to be with jiejie before my interns ends because she went to Qing Dao, China to support the client side on the Aug 2nd! *sobzzz*

im missing her... =((

lolz...

LeeLoo, me and JieJie

LeeLoo and JieJie

me and JieJie

Me cam-whoring 'cuz i've no idea how to sing that song that are playing.
I think is 古巨基 Leo Ku's 劲歌金曲 d canto song. hahaha...

Jerry Moo in the strips shirt and Terry Yap on the Yellow Shirt, WeiYoong in black Shirt.
See how serious they are singing that 古巨基 Leo Ku's 劲歌金曲..

hahahaha

i miss....

2009-06-13T22:59:00.000+08:00

i miss everything here!!!
wuwuwuwuw.....

edge of breaking down

2009-06-11T21:20:00.000+08:00

I’m the the edge of breaking down. I know I can feel it because, from time to time I just wanted to cry out loud.

I cried last night, when I was in 1u alone, walking suddenly all the feelings that I’ve bottled up came out at one go. I nearly cried out loud. But I cried silently. I called my BFFAE (best friend forever and ever), Maybel because I know that if I don’t talk to anyone; my tears will non-stop keep falling.

I talked to her everything that I’ve been through. Every single thing, I know that I got nothing to hide from her but then I keep crying. She is all I have left in my social world; only one that I can really express myself, be the real me.

She is the only friend that I can really depend on, trust on. I do not need to hide anything from her, not my mood, not my feelings, not even my temper. I can just express it to her. I know she won’t judge me or what-so-ever.

She will always be there for me whenever I need a hug, I need a shoulder, I need an ear. She gives me love that I can’t feel it among my friends, she gives me care that I can’t feel it among my friends, she gives me warms that I can’t have it from my friends.

Every single trust I give to others, I always got hurt in end. When with me, act all goody good shoes, but at the back, I’ve no idea how many times I’ve been stabbed.
I miss her a lot. I miss her like crazy. I miss those crazy times I had with her.

Recently I’ve the problem of breathing, always gasping for air. But last night, was the worst ever. I nearly can’t breathe. Dizziness headaches all come… sighs…

Wtf, I’ve been really fucking emo nowadays compare to last time. I don’t know anymore. I’m so tired. Maybe if I quit this life, become a memory it will be better. I somehow wished I got amnesia, So that I can forget every single thing and start all over again. Don't wanna repeat what I've done, repeat all the shitty things i did. Maybe by that time, I will be happy.

Slowly i've no idea who the hell am i anymore. wtf.

Damned fucking emo…

Take for Granted

2009-06-06T20:20:00.000+08:00

I slowly realize I always give.
What they want I try my best to give
But why when I need maybe just a simple concern
I can't have it?

People always takes what they want from me.
But when I need a hand, need a ear
I really can't find any.

People always tell me that I got a lot of friends.
But do I really have?

Slowly I found out that a marble that is being left out in a box full of others.
The box is too full to fit me in.

Maybe I am hard to get along.
Maybe I am hard to understand.

I really don't know who am I anymore.

Whenever being with people,
I always wear a mask.
I always act like nothings happen.

But who knows,
What the fuck I'm thinking.
What I'm feeling.

Always listen to all the bullshit people telling me.
Always thought that maybe this time will be different
but fuck off.
the ending is always the same.

Every trust I give,
I always get hurt in return.

People says we are in the same boat.
But
do you all know what the hell I'm feeling?

I'm fucking depress.

But there's no one for me to talk to...
damned fucked up~!

Emo

2009-05-23T23:36:00.000+08:00

Pig weeming crowned me Emo-Queen.
Always complaining to him about my life.
That’s why he crowned me that.
Maybe I am an truly Emo Queen

From all my previous old rotten post
Is all emo emo emo emo emo
Forever emo post

I always wanted to have a happy day.
Like those time I used to have during high school
Those time,
I never alone
I never a loner

Now,
I am alone
I am a loner

No matter do what is always alone
I hate being alone.
Although sometimes is good

But when I need someone
I can’t find anyone.

When I need a hug
I can’t find any hug

When I need a shoulder to lean on
I can’t find any shoulder to lean on

When I need an ear
I can’t find any

Slowly I found that I don’t have friends
Maybe I’m good at making people hate me
Maybe I’m destined to be a loner

So damned emo now
Tears is like beads on the broken threads,
Keep falling…. Non-stop
When can it stop?
I don’t know…

Always wearing mask
Is so suffering

I wanna go home to my parents
I don’t want to stay here anymore
This is torturing
I’m not as strong as you think I am
I’m not as independent as you think I am……

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The evil-est part of human is tongue
The words that came out from it
Is like a knife
Each words = each stab from the knife
Keeps bleeding, so painful
Shut up is a lesson I’ve learned to prevent these things happens.

I regret for making that decision
I made you suffer
But
My heart hurts more.
What can I do?
I don’t know anymore.

so damned fucked up now...

Agony

2009-05-18T19:28:00.000+08:00

I feel so bad for doing this

This makes me live in agony

But

That also makes me live in agony

Who can tell me what to do?

This sucks like shit….

enjoyed

2009-05-16T23:36:00.000+08:00

this morning woke up early and went to college to meet up with shi hooi because both of us had appointment with our FYP supervisor to discuss on our progression.

after that i went to sunway pyramid alone and shopped. Damned how i miss shopping alone. hahaha... The last time i went shopping alone i think it was few months back.
I went to Padini Concept store to buy clothes and shoes, hanged inside there for around one hour plus... and i only got 3 clothes 0 shoes (cuz cant find any nice one).

then went into Nichii, Elements, Sub, MNG, etc etc hahaha...

met up with my cousin at around 4++

wanted to watch Star Trek but no more ticket then we watch I love you, Man.
Nice movie for me, is about friendships. Love it. I might ended up like the male lead in the future. hahahaha...

After that hanged around with my cousin. then took LRT back home at around 2130 i think.
met LeeLoo and Alvin on the Dang Wangi station.
reached home at 11pm damned tired...

but i enjoyed myself today. Miss shopping alone... hahaha... Loving it! although is kinda lonely but still i like it! =)

Welcome to my Life

2009-05-15T21:32:00.000+08:00

I was listening to Hitz.Fm today and then this song, Welcome to my Life by Simple Plan came out.
Was listening and found out that the lyrics are like singing out my own deepest voice.
This is what i've been feeling for this few times...
sighhhhhhhh

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Run and Hide

2009-05-15T07:19:00.000+08:00

Where can I run to?
I just want to run away from all of this
Can’t I just continue to live in my own dream, my own world
I just want to hide away from all of this

Why do you have to come and ruin all of this?
I just wanna be myself is it that hard?
I just want to escape from all of this…

Appreciation

2009-05-09T23:08:00.000+08:00

kor says " we need to know what things should be appreciate and what things should not be..."

spend so much things to trying to get to you...
but
you never get me

i just a simple normal girl

but

im ended up to be
a hard-to-get hard-to-understand
and
a good hider
an good actress
of my mood

one word

2009-05-07T20:13:00.000+08:00

i got a feeling that i'm falling into a endless darkness.
i can't really know what will come next
when will i reach the bottom.

this kind of feelings scares me a lot
i love being with people
who really does appreciate and knows me

i've already been with you for so damned long
and yet
why i can understand your thoughts and you can't
i tried my best to understand and know you
and why you can't do it the same?

one sentence of yours
really hurt me a lot...
although you never thought about that...
but still it really hurts a lot
i once wanna give up on this
but
i stil tried my best to keep it
and yet
you keep hurting me from time to time
do you know?
crying over and over again over this matter
when will it over?

someone tells me to give up
since that is already making me miserable...
maybe is time to do so.......

"Life is full of set back.. It just a matter that when you fall you gotta stand up and goes on pretend nothing happens but learned from the set backs and not repeat it again"

all in one

2009-05-06T22:46:00.000+08:00

Perseverance
Is a thing that I’m lacking
How am I going to have it?
Persevere in doing something
Persevere in learning something
Although at the beginning I always have the heart to do it properly
But
When is in the middle, I always give up
Procrastinate is always the reason
Later this later that.
Take learning guitar for example
Although teacher said I’m a fast learner
Thru half way, procrastinate won
And I’m lazy to learn it
Now my guitar is sitting at the corner so lonely with dust, spider web all over it……

Confidence
Is a thing that I’ve lost
People always said that I’m confident doing this doing that…
I used to feel that too
But now
I don’t…
I always thinks that I’m not capable of doing it
Although there’s a lot people saying that I am
Am I?
Am I really able to?
I don’t know anymore…
When can my confidence come back to me?

Lost
Is a thing that I’m feeling always
From time to time
I’m so lost
Don’t know whether to go this way or that way
Once I really wanna give up on my studies
Due to some things happens
Although I love my course a lot
This is a road that I’ve chosen
Who else to blame for the misery but me

Alone
Is a thing that becoming my friend
Alone doing this and that
Weekend stay at home
While “friends” goes out without asking
Maybe being alone is also a good thing
But I’m afraid of loneliness
I really do

Happy
is a thing that i hard to catch
I’m happy
When I’m working
But when I’m home
Is totally a different feeling

There’s always laughter there
The feeling Is different from when I’m in classes and at home
And I didn’t laugh so much ever since my Degree year...
I’m really enjoying myself working

With all those crazy gang, LeeLoo (who claim to be my BFF… lolz ), weiyoong (annoying one but funny), Kenneth ( who is our Big bro), CheeYee( who is our adorable nanny), Woei Jye (quiet and yet sometimes funny) etc etc
I think I will really miss you all when I finish my training…

Holiday is coming soon…
Where can I go?
most probably stay at home and rot....
And
I’m not going back home to celebrate Mother’s Day..
How friggin’ Sad….

ps: abang... ive updated... dont say i din update... hahah..=P

Things are not always what they seems to be

2009-05-04T22:04:00.001+08:00

Things are not always what they seems to be

Everything have their own perspective

And

Is how you see the things is…

Life Unfair

Life Cruel

Life Miserable

That’s what mostly people thinks

Include me

From all my old rotten post

You guys can see that

I was living in a miserable life

Full of sadness

But now

I've learned to look at things the other way round

Try looking at the good way

Don’t always look the bad side

Every things has it’s good and bad

Just that most people are attract to the "bad"

From now, look at the "good"

it makes your heart feel much more better

Nowadays,

Before I leave me house,

I will look at the mirror and says

“A new day, smile at everything no matter what”

Why live a day of sadness?

That’s only make my ownselves suffer

Live a day of Happiness

it will makes me happy

and

That will also pass it to others around me

so

SMILE at everything! =)

just craps

2009-04-29T19:55:00.000+08:00

"although seems so happy but who knows i'm all alone inside."

another week of my working life is going to finish

a new week is going to start...

but today
i got a shocking news from my nanny who told me that 70% of possibility that all of us trainee gotta transfer back to the main company in ttdi.. wtf... i got so depressed when i heard this... i dont wanna to move... i dont wanna change location anymore.. I'm loving my working environment, with all my friends leeloo, sheiyee, weiyoong, kenneth, woei jye and cheeyee... senior they all treat us so good... being with them are so happy.. Everyday cracking crazy jokes... fooling around.. It was not like working more like having fun... So I DONT WANNA GO!

so i got depress for quite some times afterwards... then nanny told us that 3 of us might gotta go... that makes me even depress... i nearly cry (so dramatic lolz...)

but then afterwards she comes and told us that all no need to go... just two of us change department and the 2 person is me and weiyoong.. wtf...

but luckily no need to change place... I GOT TO STAY!

i was soo happy and yet i dont wanna get my hopes to high.. if not later there's sudden changes makes me even more depress...
but now im happy and content with my working life with all my crazy friends in OCBC...

the most happy thing now for me is
i'm going back to BATU PAHAT tomorrow! yeah!!!! finally~ and i cant wait~ =P

Wah... Hot Hot Hot!!!!

2009-04-27T20:16:00.000+08:00

Hot Hot Hot Hot
Hot Hot Hot Hot Hot Hot
Hot Hot Hot Hot Hot Hot Hot Hot

That's all i can for the weather nowadays....
the temperature can really allow you to cook an egg on the road

even in the dead early morning
taking a cold bath also shiok a~!

showering in the cold water
makes me dont want to come out
if i have a bath tub
one hour also wont come out....
hahaha....

and can hear everyone complaining
"Fuck soooooooooooooooooo hooooooot aaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!"

sitting too long on the plastic chair at home makes ur ass sweat also...
from time to time have to stand up to dry it...
bwhahaha....

afternoon nap makes you wanna take off your tops and sleep...
or you can feel ur back plaster on your t-shirt cuz of the sweat

although with the sky so clear
but the clouds floating are so little
and no winds...
with bright sunny hot sun
blazing off my day~
sighhhh

and

the 6.45am sky of my 6th day morning work~

Officially Working

2009-04-22T19:41:00.000+08:00

Now...

I'm a OL..
lolz...
that's what i was being called by my housemate...

Reported myself to Silverlake Company at PJ. During the briefing, we were being assigned to different division, project and supervisor. I was in Collection OCBC with my friends... As i thought that i was base in the Company. However, i was transfered to OCBC at Masjid Jamek... wtf i was already moved my stuff to my aunt place as i thought i was working in Silverlake. But not i got transfered. then now i've to move to setapak on the very 1st day because the next day i still have to go to work.

Reached OCBC actually is not bad. as it will be more convenience to me. lolz... silverlake workers are called as silverlaker. the rest of the senior silverlaker are not bad... most of them are nice... got one or two kinda pissed me off. =___=

our company got internet access but cannot surf it. only limited sites can. Even Google also cannot. wtf~

Learned new programming language RPG... it fun... more or less like C but harder.. ==
still i enjoyed myself there...

meet new people all the silverlakers.... lolz... cheeyee we call her nanny secretly as she is the one that supervise us and not our real supervisor... lolz... Edwin, our supervisor assigned him to take care us... then he pass it to cheeyee.. lolz... Kenneth, our teacher... always ask him what is this what is that... he said that leeloo is annoying... lolz...

leeloo and i will talk gossip about this and that from time to time... always laughing... talking bad about this and that... lolz

I heard alot friends says they are not enjoying themselves... bored, tired, sien or whatever.
1st of work was really tiring... totally drained all my energy... second day and so on was not... really energetic... =)

currently we are now quite free... always nothing to do... kenneth brought us the RPG book... then we make a photocopy and learn the codes inside... hehe...

anyway... more blog on my training will coming...

a new day has begun... lolz..

21 Years

2009-04-13T22:15:00.000+08:00

21 the age turning into a adult
getting the key of freedom
seems like its a big deal

April 11 2009
the date for me turning 21

thank you to those who wished me
it really means a lot to me
it really does

and for those who didn't and forgot u're now in my unforgivable list
yes shiny im talking about you and lwy also...
hate u both lar

anyway
i had the most simple birthday back home with my family
and
it is the best birthday i had in ages
spending time wit family make me realise how wonderful it is

then i decided to dig some old photo out to have a look...
and
suprisingly
i found funny photos....

Pic 1: me!
age 1

Pic 2: me again
age 3
with donald duck birthday cake

i had a minnie birthday cake too but cant find the photo
sorry~
hahaha

Pic 3: me again again
no idea how old
hahaha

Pic 4: Mum and me at auntie Pei Kwee's Wedding =)

Pic 5: Me again! outside my old old house =)

Pic 6: Auntie Charlie and my mum...
xinli and I in the tummy~

Pic7: Baby Rui Han, Grandma and Me!
RuiHan: Watcha Looking at?!

Pic 8: my cousins
hahaha
who can u find inside? lolz

Pic 9: Julie with a funky hair... bathing bwahahaha
i cant stop laughing when i saw this photo!
kakakakaka
and uncle jian julie's dad

Pic 10: little Julie digging nose! and being caught red-handed
hahah

Pic 11: BABY RUIHAN! lolz

Pic 12: WHo do u spot? hahahaha

Pic 13: Little Penny, Little Beatrice,
Little Justin (who now is evil although look cute her), Little Grumpy Julie and Little Xinli

Pic 14: Charlotte says AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH............

Pic 15: Little Rui Wen says, why are u taking my photo?!
nice pose anyway~
hahaha

Pic 16: bwahahahah
look how retro they are hahahah
ansern, andrew and ruishen

Pic 17: Julie ggma and xinli

Pic 18 : Coconut head of Daryl
hahha

Pic 19: *Grinz*

and

Justin mum me dad and sister
at home celebrating my 21st Birthday
=)

my key to freedom
actually my family doesn't have this kind of tradition
i force them to get me one
hahaha

me and my Grandma

lastly

i made some sushi when i was back home

can spot smiley faces? kekek

Ended~

2009-04-03T14:53:00.000+08:00

bah~ my Year 1 Sems 3 ended

and wtf i gotta start my interns on Apr 20. i haven't prepare myself for it la...

but before go for interns
ive to buried myself in notes~

sighhhh

hate exam...

this sems ended so fast~
boohooo

anyway, this sems wasn't a enjoyable time for me
i think it is worst than last sems~

one of my closest friend here
kinda ditched me
her attitude changes
everything
in and out
hopes she realise that
before all her friends are gone~
left both of u~

and
wanna wish
Happy Birthday to someone I love~

XinLi

Happy 21st birthday!
hahaha
i haven got u any prezzie
but i promise
will be soon
luv u soo much d! muakx

ps: actually wanna put a ugly photo of u~ but being a good cousin i didn't~ bwahaha

Lost Penny

2009-04-01T14:08:00.000+08:00

Misunderstanding happens all around
Sometimes people just don’t want to solve it
Just let it be there
People always don’t want to listen to others
Naturally they always think they are right
We are wrong
People do change from time to time
From the events happens all around
The changes sometimes cannot be predict

Getting hurts all the time
Slowly become numb on that
But sometimes thought that heart is already numb
But it hasn’t

I miss home
I miss my family
I miss my grandma the most
Every time whenever I’ve setbacks
She always there
Always there for me
The TLC she gives
Is unconditionally
Feeling like giving up on life
Feel like giving up everything I have
Everyday being a pretender

People do ask me sometimes
Why are you so down?
Why you look so glum?
Why are you so quiet?
Can I really tells?

Some one once promised to me said
“We will be best friends forever. No matter what”
But it seems that we are slowly drifting apart.
Slowly realized my social circle is so small
Although it seems huge

There's so much uncertainty in life
Who can tell me the best solutions and answers?

no title

2009-03-29T22:06:00.001+08:00

back to batu pahat on Thurs...
enjoyed myself back home~
haha
had the urge of not coming back here
tumpang lindsay car back to KL
said 10am come get us...
ended up she come fetch me at 11.30+am

next week cheng beng~
too bad i cant go back
due to my finals~
wtf..
they're around the corner~!
but still
like i care~
bwhahaha

my final year project
is dead
i haven start yet
bwhahaha
my partner is soooo gonna kill me

tmr and tues
the government people is coming to my class
for doing the MQA thingy...
fucking sien~!
and i have to attend their interview
swt~

watched

Marley & Me

damned love owen wilson
ahhaha
love Marley too
love the show!
=)

Race to the Witch Mountain

hehe
another nice movie from Walts Disney!
nice~~~
hahaha
really nice...
dwayne johnsoN!!
hahaha
aka The ROCK!
lolz

the boy is C-U-T-E
hahaha
His Name Alexander Ludwig
=)

the girl...
she's from Bridge Terabithia..
and the chewing gum girl from Chocolate Factory
pretty girl
AnnaSophia

Slumdog Millionaire

won lotsa Oscar
reli
reli nice show~ =)
MUST WATCH

ps: all these movie above is MUST WATCH!
hahaha

Hope....

2009-03-23T01:03:00.000+08:00

took some test in facebook...
this is one of the result...

What Chinese Character are you?

My chinese character is HOPE.
actually is true..
i really do need hope now...
I kinda lost my confidence in life doing everything

How happy are you in your life?

"There's something missing inlife, always keep running behind something and wants something new to happen in life always"

true...
i really do need something new
to change the way im living now...
always been chasing something
somethings that always keep running away from me
which is
happiness
(i think)

Earth Hour 2009

2009-03-20T21:47:00.000+08:00

On Saturday, 28 March 2009 8.30pm to 9.30pm is the Earth Hours where cities, towns, and country will turn off the lights for an hour. This is an event organised by WWF, it focused on highlighting energy conservation and climate change around the world.

will ya join?? lolz...
Most probably i will~
Be a part in saving our Earth before it gone...
just like WALL•E the movie... =)

Dino Trek

2009-03-14T21:25:00.000+08:00

Mar 4th...
Went sunway pyramid to celebrate sookkuan birthday~
Happy 21st Birthday dear~
=)

stopped at sakae sushi to have lunch

then off we go ice skating...

after that actually wanted to go bowling...
but somehow it is full

then i ditched sookkuan they all
and went hanged out with my cousin wen
we went to watch the movie street fighter..
lolz

me and beething...
at sakae sushi~

sookkuan and yj...
sakae sushi

sookkuan me and beething..
on the ice~

beething and sookkuan~

_________________________________________________________

Mar 14

Meet beepoh at klcc~
as she
wanted to see the dinosaur exhibition~

it was sooo boring~
haha
so far out from my expectation~
sigh~

T-rex is in the HOUSE!

whatever this dino is~
is nice~ =)

gggrrraaaawwww~
they actually move~!
like they are fighting....
but still
bored~

please identify your skull and take it away...
btw, i also dont who or what dino it is...

this is cool..

my bestest friend in the whole universe...
beepoh ~

_________________________________________________________

this few weeks i watched 3 movies

street fighter
the middle part kinda boring but the fighter part kinda shiok~

DragonBall
not bad lar... lolz...

Punisher
rate: -100%
bad!
sucks!
not nice at all!

A Picture Worth a thousand words...

2009-03-13T12:17:00.000+08:00

Picture Worth A Thousand Words..

First emotion of the day due to stuffs...

Second....

then third....

Lastly...
I Spent the rest of my day with this emotion....

Need Hug

2009-03-03T19:28:00.000+08:00

im alone in this place
who needs a real from someone who knows.

and

Im juz a normal simple girl
who needs a hug...

am i that bad?
am i that evil?

sad heart waiting for the rainbow

2009-02-26T16:50:00.000+08:00

There are so many people around me

And yet I feel so alone

The loneliness

Is scaring me

Like I’m inside a dark cave

No matter how hard I scream

No matter how hard I called

Still I got nothing in return

So scary

And

I’m all alone

Always thought

There are friends around me

Who bring joy to me

And yet loneliness is the one who came

Again and again

I tried

But it always ended with sadness

My heart now is crying

My heart now no longer smiling

Now,

I’ve no longer know who my friends are

I’ve no longer know what joy feels likes

I’ve no longer know who Penny Lim is

Sometimes

I really feel like giving up everything

always pretend that everything are alright

is very tiring

so tired

Someone once told me

There’s always rainbow after the storm

I’m always waiting for it

And yet

It is always disappointment…

Chines New Year 2009

2009-02-03T16:39:00.000+08:00

blogged this a month ago... and now only post it
bwhahaha

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Damned la...
My CNY was in between my Final Exams.
I have to come back to KL on the 31st to have my last Subject.
so damned fucked up le!

but still i had a wonderful time back in BP during CNY

CNY Eve
25 January 2009
-------------------------

I just woke up due to some talking noise outside my room lolz.
it was Xinli who arrived at my house. Guess what time she arrive. 10.30Am
yes! morning 10.30. I suppose to be in dream land. but since she is here so i wake up le.. lolz

Then slowly one by one each of them slowly arrive at my place.
on the eve, we had our reunion dinner at Katherina Hotel.
The food there actually not bad la

My mum-side family also celebrate eve there together too! heheh

my family photo!!!

finally my stupid brother pic is in my blog!

in pic: me, bro, mum, dad, sis

the gay look of my brother!
and my mum~

actually wanna take while she eat
but she spotted and peace-out!
but got ruishen's
lolz

me and julie!

back home...
me and xinli

my other cousin..
sheng me sherine

And that day was actually Omar's Birthday who is Xinli's brother.
we celebrated his birthday after the dinner and of course is before 12am
hehehe

We had been complaint by someone about how slow we, the girls are on the 1st day.
So we all ended up sleeping early....
sien...

CNY Day 1
26 January 2009
------------------------

Xinli was the first one to wake up... I think lolz...
then she woke me up at around 7.30am...
We (Me, Bea, Ju, Xin) got ready before 9am and they all also haven't reach.
Still complaint us. Next time will be our turn to complain.
bwhahahaha
then of course ang paw collection from all my relatives...
visiting one relative after another...

ruiwen
sleeping on the living room floor... lolz...
and it looks like he is hugging the sofa.. hahah

ruishen resting position.. haha

me and sammi
at my grandma's place

we even cam-whore at relatives place...
hahah...
adults talking ma...
so we all cam-whore lor... hahah

me face in ruishen watch!
hahah

me and wendee...
during my house open-house
hahaha

and then...
dat day was also justin's birthday!
hahah
purposely ask him to make that gay look!
hahha
Happy Birthday PIG!

CNY Day 2
27 January 2009
------------------------

nothing much happens dat day....
due to
EVERYONE IS LEAVING!
wuhuhuhu....
so sad...
wished that we had more time together
sigh...
when will be the next time we meet again miss u guys!!

Procrastinating again

2009-01-15T19:13:00.000+08:00

damned lar
damned damned damned
so fuck up!
should have go to college and study
and i won't end up being like this~
wuhuhuh

feel so alone le at home...
everything done by myself
sigh
i tried to change
but sometimes
i just forgot... =P

but still
again and again
hurting me is not fun at all
maybe not intentionally but it did
sigh
getting numb on all of this

kor aka joseph
said
"We spent too much time focusing on why these assholes treat us like this...why no matter how good we are, and how we treat them well... we get treated like junk still. and ended up wasting that time.. when that other time can be given to other ppl who might treasure it more...we care TOO MUCH about others...its about time we care for ourselves....."

now i dont know anymore...
maybe I do
or maybe I dont

I was once told im self-centered...
am i?
who doesn't self-centered anyway?

sigh

" I'm now at the crossroad..
so lost
so confused
without a map in my hands. "

Procrastinating

2009-01-15T00:15:00.003+08:00

suppose to be studying or sleeping...
cuz is 12.20am now.
i got a paper tomorrow and the next day..
and yet I'M PROCRASTINATING!
damned bored...
out-of-the-mood to study...

CNY is around the corner...
the street outside my place is decorated with those red red round round lanterns
opposite the road the selling the "gam" aka orange
damned i sooooo wanna go back BP lar!
but
in less than 10 days!
10 DAYS!
i will be back to my pigsty
which is my room
hahaha
which it was named by my mum~
hahaha....
cuz it is very messy!
i gotta go back to clean it up before my cousins are back...

anyway,
i got the offer from Silverlake!
bwahahaha....
so happy!
and also not..
because of *************
(personal and most inner reasonss)

___________________________________________________

Penny quote for today

" I'd Lived, I'd Loved, I'd Hated, I'd Betrayed, I'd cried, I'd angry, I'd miserable,I'd Lonely, I'd depressed, I'd happied, I'd fun, I'd Studied, I'd Worked, I'd graduated, I'd sick, I'd crazy, I'd travel, I'd... I'd... I'd... ...
But the most important is...
I'd know Y-O-U in my life!"

see!
told ya am bored!

-cheerio-

Interview and Exam once more...

2009-01-07T15:30:00.000+08:00

today went to interview at silverlake for my internship...
man i love the company enviromnent
so peaceful
hahaha

heard that andrew used to work there...
hmmmm.....
=P
hahaha
i really hope that i can get in!
and be in the main company
and not the customer-side
everyone finger cross!
hahaha

__________________________________

damned in a week time my finals are here
im so damned gan cheong lar!
hahaha
but on the other side...
cny is here!
mean ang pow
food
ang pow
cousins
ang pow
crapping with them
and
ANG POW!
hahahaha

so excited

A rundown

2008-12-26T22:49:00.000+08:00

first of all
HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009!
bwahahaa....
had a sien-ness-to-the-maxness new year
=P

anyway before xmas i was back in bp and
been back to bp for nearly 2 weeks
man!
i enjoy it sooooooooo damned freaking much!
shiok ar!

skipping classes
skipping assignments
postponing test

bwhahahaha

Penny is bad gurl!
but still
im having my time here back in bp
___________________________________________

i attended my aunt wedding
on the Dec 20th
met my dad at sunway on the 18th
since that he was coming to get my relatives from bintulu
then of course followed him back to bp!

and of course P-H-O-T-O!

the happy couple...

me grandma and aunt

the girls!

all my aunts~!

my family wit the groom and the bride~

FAMILY PHOTO!

the girls from my mom-side family~!
taken before dinner!
bwhahaah

photo was taken after the dinner...
we were enjoying taking photo
and
me dad come and destroy our pretty photo...

sheng qi and me!

me mum and me dad~!

me sherine and sammi~
my cousins~!

taken after dinner right outside the restorant door!
wen and me
shengqi beside me..
and sherine popping out from the back~!
bwhahaha

me and mum of course~
me and sheng qi~

________________________________________________

then i went to sunway to celebrate xmas with my family
but i didn't go back to setapak after dat
i follow my parents back to bp again!
bwahahaha
watched Yes man in the new cinema in Batupahat

man the cinema stinks
due to that it is NEW!
yew...
not the new paint smell
something else
yucks!
anyway...
the movie is nice!!!
bwhahahha
Jim Carrey is always the best comedians ever!
so funny le....
then on the 29th only go back to setapak to
continue my boring classes
continue my stress-to-death test and assignment

and
my final exam timetable is fucking sucks like shit!
damned sien!
ish ish ish!

but still
i have a time best time ever in bp!

__________________________________________________

New year.. did nothing much of course
except after class
went to Timesquare to watch movie with a gang of friends
we watched the bedtime stories by Adam Sandler...

bwhahaha
he is still so funny
love him
this movie is nice too!
ahahaha
laugh all the way..=P

UPDATE!

2008-12-09T00:08:00.000+08:00

yeah!
i finished reading the book!
omg!
i love the 4th book!
loved it sooo much!

it is a book worth to read!
go ahead and read it

hate the second book
when edward HAVE to leave Bella
and then Bella ended up with Jacob!
hate it hate it hate it
BELLA should be with EDWARD NOT JACOB!

but still at the end Bella became the Hero who save edward
bwhahahah...

LOVE EDWARD!

2008-12-02T23:36:00.000+08:00

after watching the movie Twilight
with Robert Pattinson inside of course..
gosh! Love him!

im eager to read the damned book..

so i got the book from JoShin
hehehe

i read the first book which is twilight
and
i finished in two days.
yeah two days!
and
im total in love with Edward Cullen!
he is so damned romantic!
oh my god~!
Edward quote: "You are my life now"
aaaaaawwwwwwww
how i wished there also be a guy who will say that to me...
hehehe

and

now im reading the 2nd book which is the New Moon

where
due to Bella safety
Edward and his family decide to leave her
so sad ya know...
when Edward came and tell her..
ouch~

Edward said: "I promise that this will be the last time you'll see me. I won't come back. I won't put you through anything like this again. You can go on with your life without any more interference from me. It will be as if I'd never existed."

ouch that really ouch when Edward said that
im now already half way through the 2nd book!
damned im addicted to it..
hahaha..

cant wait to read the 3rd book which is Eclipse

and
the last book which is Breaking Dawn

and i have test and assignment due friday
and i have test on next thurs
and i have tonnes of assignment haven't finish!
and yet
im reading this!
bwahhaha
who cares!
as long as i can finish it!
*blekz*

ps: I want a boyfriend who is just like Edward! and i dont mind if he is vampire or werewolves! as long as he loves me... bwahaha...
ppss: that's girls dreams... imagination... ahahaha... sue me!

Twilight

2008-11-29T23:26:00.000+08:00

Few hours ago...
i went to watch twilight with my pals...

and

this movie was good...

although the starting of the movie is kinda giving me a headache...
with trying to give the speedy effect

but still

to me
i think it is a not bad movie...
and of course
cute guy
bwhahaha

Robert Pattinson

Robert Pattinson!
he is so cute!
and he is British
double the cute-ness
bwahahah

and
and
and

he play piano!
P-I-A-N-O!
triple the cute-nessssss
*grinz*

at first when i look at the poster
i was thinking this cute hottie is kinda familiar...
he was in the movie of
Harry Potter: The Goblet of Fire as the Cedric Diggory
who die in the end murdered by Voldermolt.

this is Robert Pattinson and Kristen Steward.
in this movie is the vampire...
named Edward Cullen.
In their world their family are the so-called vegetarian...
cuz they only feed on the animals blood not human.
and this

is his family with Bella
love the girl Alice. short black hair... (on the left)
a pretty girl...

anyway... he is so damned cute...
in this movie...
his makeup makes him too pale..
like a living dead...
but still
he is C-U-T-E

wanna buy the book to read...
hahaha...

anyway...
loves this movie...
loves Robert Pattinson!
bwhahaha

Happy ?

2008-11-22T23:23:00.000+08:00

today went sunway do shopping!
yeah~
meet up with my cousin, wen who is studying there
shopped with him whole day

and

it was the happiest day i ever had in these past few days.
so freakingly happy le~

bought 4 shirts
and spent nearly rm200 (include food of course)
broke a nail while "fighting" with my cousin at the cinema counter
ahhaha

everything was gone when spending time with him
so happy ^.^
so exhausted
and next weekend destination
will be
Pavilion!
bwahahaha

however this feeling was
never lasted for whole day till i sleep..
sigh....

anyway had great day...
hope tomorrow will be too ... (;

2008-11-22T00:44:00.000+08:00

累
tired
+
痛
hurt

wished that

2008-11-20T20:27:00.000+08:00

all i can say now is S-O-R-R-Y
i don't know that
i really do...
and
this feelings are not happened recently
this feelings happens long before

i know
that I'm bad tempered
that I'm impatient
that the way i talk to you guys
but this is it...
I'm like this
i try to change
i will

getting knowing someone
is when you accept who they are

only one person know me
only one girl
in this world I'm living
only this one
only one
who
understand who am i
understand what i really am
understand what i really need
even sometimes i don't need to say anything
she knows what i want
she knows what i wanted to say
when we looked at each others
we know...
i miss her a lot
she is in PJ
far away from me
who is beepoh....
misses her so much...

still
i thank you..

silence is gold
shut up better than talking

wished that everything is the same
wished that everything is bygone
wished that I'm invisible
wished that I've no feeling no fear, no sadness, nothing
wished that I'm stupid
wished that i don't know everything

sometimes

2008-11-19T19:23:00.000+08:00

sometimes i really fed up of you guys.
they way you guys treat people is like shit
like they are nobody

everyone is a somebody in some one's eye
but
i felt that im a nobody in everyone's eyes

needed me
then find me
finish using
just dump me away like a used paper

treat others like you want to be treated
if i treat u like that what will u feel?
i already tried my best to do everything you guys wanted
still
im a nobody

there's one chinese quote says that
"When outside, depend on friends"
bullshit! a pile of shit

depends on friend will die faster than u thought

all of this stuff happens around me
i've no idea who to trust, who not to trust anymore

if i vent my anger on you, you're will fed up and dun even talk to me
what about yourself?
you vent your anger at me then it is alright?
FUCK off!

if you want people to treat you they way you wanted
treat PEOPLE THAT WAY TOO!

sometimes
i just wanna walk out
walk away
live a life without you guys might be better....

tired

2008-11-17T00:02:00.000+08:00

nowadays...
other than the sadness

is
tiredness

somehow
wished that
i can sleep forever

原来。。。

2008-11-12T19:38:00.000+08:00

原来。。。
这一切都是假的
还是只是错觉？
还是都是真的？
我已经分不清楚了。。。

有时觉得真得自己很像多余的。。。
就像你们的生活瓶子已经满了。。。
装不像我这一颗单株。。。
就被遗忘在外。。

这是因为我的关系吗？
这是因为我的问题吗？

我真的不知道。。。
希望你们会告诉我。。
不要怕会伤害我。。。
或者。。。
你们能识者慢慢的告诉我
或者
好声好气地说。。

由你们的意见
我才能尽量的改进。。

要不然我真的不知道
自己错在哪里。。
而那个错误会一直都在。。

这样我会跟伤。。

我真的不想当局外者。。
显然的
你对我的态度
和对他们
是不一样的。。。
就连旁观者
都看得见。。

旁观者都会问我。。
每次都是以尴尬收尾。。
每次都不知道要这么回答。。

渐渐的。。
发现
原来我们是名义上的朋友
事实上是陌生人。。。

藤井树 - 夏日之诗

2008-11-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

这几天读了这本书。。。
觉得还不错。。。
一路来。。。
都很喜欢他写的书。。。
他的书，
有一种吸引力。。
会让我不知不觉地爱上。。
哈哈。。

这本书有一段词
我很喜欢。
那就是，

“
灵魂就像一块蛋糕。四四方方的。
你爱过的人。你就会分出一部分的灵魂给他，像是蛋糕割去了一小片。
如果他也爱你，那么它就会分出一部分的灵魂给你，像是给你一小片蛋糕。
这一来一往之间，那一小片蛋糕的施与受，重视会让你的灵魂恢复原状的。
如果你爱上的人并不爱你，那么你的灵魂，就会出现缺口。
因为已经给出去的灵魂，永远要不回来了。
”

很喜欢这个词。。。
觉得很真。。。
如果要补回这个缺口还真的需要另一个爱情的到来...
但是。。。
痕迹一定会留下来。。。

还有在他的另一个作品交 “这城市”
在里面也有一些此我觉得很有意义。。。

“幸福,不管是经过一番辛苦，还是轻轻松松德得到都是最难忘的。。。”
“青春是生命的累积，过去是回忆的累积。。。”
“散步是一种沟通，是一种交流,是一种新陈代谢，是一种言语。。。”

homeless.... stay in the house bunny

2008-11-02T16:07:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to lowyat with charlotte aka my cousin to buy her new phone as she lost hers few month ago...

and when i was finish bathing came out to the living room... my housemate told me that later the agent is coming.. owner is selling off the house...
fuck it!
sell off the house?!
without informing us in the advance....
fuck fuck fuck lar!

if the house really sell off where the hell you wanna us to stay...
if the buyer wanted the house for themselves and not for investment?
fuck it~!

the buyer came... and it was my old lecturer~ dont like her... as she speak with only one tone... even she is mad... -_-"'

so talked to her and everything... she planned to buy for herself..
and then today... another two buyer came by... to see the house... i think they intend to buy this lot... fuck up lar...

soon or later
im going to homeless..
irony life~
crap life~

me and charlotte went to watch house bunny after she bought her neww phone...
damned it is funny!
love that movie...

learned something there..
even you look different from how you used to look...
friends and family will always love you no matter what...
friends and family love who and what you are...

since im going to be homeless...
i think im going to pledge for ZETA (house bunny)
hahahaha

觉得。。。

2008-10-30T01:37:00.000+08:00

觉得要坦诚的面对别人。。。
有时是需要很大的勇气。。。
跟何况我们都需要跟大的勇气来面对自己。。。。。。

寂寞孤独不一定是坏事。。。
在这当中我慢慢的了解自己。。。
慢慢的发现自己的弱点。。。
再让自己有勇气的面对自己的缺点。。。
让自己有那机会正视自己的弱点。。。。。。

在这世界有时会有很多事让我们很容易放弃
放弃那个机会去勇往直前。。。
放弃那个机会去面对。。。

为何要让这些有的没得东西来让我们放弃??
为何不要用另外一种观点来让我们不放弃??

在人生不是只有一种解决方法。。。
在人生是有于种不同的方法来解决一件事。。。
为何不用那个方法来解决呢??
为何人就是要钻牛角尖呢??

人有时还真茅盾。。。 =_='"